what a weekend

What a weekend it was up, down and crazzzyyy. Friday night after work I snuck out 15 minutes early we went and set up the pinewood derby track at church. After we were done I told Ray I wanted to run down and say happy birthday to one of my best friends mary lou. As I was sitting at the bar having an adult cocktail with her my ex husband walked in this is the man that ruined 5 years of my life. he was mentally, physically and emotionally abusive. He destroyed my dreams of being a cop by getting my self esteam so low I had a hard time picking my head up without crying if it wasnt for Kat and Lou I wouldnt have gotten through it. He beat his next girlfriend and high tailed it back to NY that was 9 years ago last month. I then picked myself up and met Ray a year later. Now I did see him every year at a local fair he came to work and that was enough for me so you can see why it was such a shock to see him out. Lou was just as shocked he had a pocket full of cash and was hammered (nothing new) he came in and said Shelly Belly, Lou Lou I'm back. I wanted to puke. He went to the other end of the bar and was reminising, he is working for an old friend from Maine building houses so he says, I couldnt take it I gave Lou a hug and said I'm sorry I have to go. She understood, on the way home I called Kat and vented everything to her Thanks Kat.

I did tell Ray because we are now really locking up the house at night my ex is the type to get shitfaced enough to show up and just walk in. Ray is cool he said if he comes on the deck I'll tell him to leave or I'm calling the cops if he steps foot in this house I will shoot him. I told him with a hug not if I do first. I so love Ray, that ended Friday.

Saturday morning we got up bright and early and went to the pinewood derby.

then we went and bought guess what we bought I'm sooo excited a dishwasher. I hate doing dishes and have never every owned a dishwasher. I called today and we should be having it hooked up on Wednesday afternoon I'm getting out of work early to have my remicade treatment and that tires me out so I had the guys come that afternoon not like I'm going to help I'm just going to watch anyways.

after we picked the washer up we came home and my mom stopped by. Her and I went to Bobs to put a deposit on the couch we wont pick it up for awhile but we put a deposit on it. While there I went to the bargain basement and got a new desk it taller but smaller than our old desk I liked it and it was cheap all the scratches are hidden by the computer stuff.

Sunday morning we went to church to thank everyone for allowing us to hold the derby there, then we went grocery shopping and when we got home we flipped the living room completely around we had to so we could set the desk up. we would have had to anyways for the new couch but its done now we we soo tired I was sitting on the floor taking a break and the phone rang. yippeee it was the job I have been waiting to find out about I am on to the next faze of the process and if I pass this and one more test I have the job. I did find out it going to be a huge pay CUT yeah like 5 an hour cut but the benefits are better in the long run, and the retirement is better so we will have some decisions to make when the time comes but for now yippppeee.

Today at work we walked in to no heat again. Last week it was we were out of oil at least this week it was the furnice and someone came right out but you can see why that would be fustrating to work there.

Ok Mike is in bed, Ray is at tae kwon do and I'm going to watch tutors and knit. Later. I should have time to come back Wednesday while they are putting in my dishwasher. :-)

well let me just say being back to work sucks big time. I was soo tired after 10.5 hours monday and 9.5 yesterday I came home crabby like really crabby I was snapping at everyone. I started supper and went to fold laundry, nice warm towels, well I hugged one of those nice warm towels and out I went. Ray said he came in to ask me if I was eating and I was sound asleep so he just left me until he came to bed and told me to get under the covers.
Today was a good day I had another job interview and it was another panel interview and I think I did much much better I dont know why but I felt more comfortable today than I did at the one last week. They said I would find out next week if I'm going on to the next stage. Thats cool whatever, there was another person or kid waiting with me he told me his life story just got out of college well dropped out never had a full time job etc.............. he was quite interesting he said he hadnt had a cigarette all morning so they wouldnt smell it I'm like dude what if you get the job or they ask you on the poly what are you going to do then. this is the type of job you dont lie no matter what, dont hide who you are lay it all out and you will do much better but whatever good luck to him.
ok I need to go start supper the boys are running down to weigh Michaels pinewood derby car before going to tae kwon do I might get to see them for a minute in between.

Later

happy easter

we had a great day we got up had a big breakfast. Michael went around the house finding all his presents the easter bunny left one with each egg. Notice in the picture no chocolate. meme always gives us sweet stuff so the easter bunny doesnt bring it to our house. then we went to church it was a full house as it is every holiday. then we stopped by my moms to say hi and kill some time we had to be at meme's at 1 and then we went to meme's and met my dad there and had dinner now we are stuffed and ready for naps. I'll be really ready tomorrow night my first day back to work cross you fingers for me not to fall asleep at my dest :)

talk at ya soon

wow am I glad I didnt try to go back to work today. I did get the ok to go back Monday but let me tell you about this morning. Ray got up went to work, Mike has the day off teachers workshop or something. So I get up around 8 and go pee and the floor is wet mmm well Ray did take a shower this morning but I hear water running I look sink is off check shower off check so I kneel down and look in the hole that goes into the closet where the hot water tank is and holy shit water everywheres. now remember we live in a trailer and the hot water tank is in the back of the spare room closet behind a false wall, So I run to the spare room and open the door, we keep it closed since we dont use it and got hit with a wall of steam damn everything is dripping like a sauna. I holler to michael get me the phone and get in here. I open the window and start handing Mike cloths from the closet to get out, everything is damp and I called Ray in full panic mode thinking the tank blew up. once I get into the closet I dont know how to shut the water off I know the main shut off is outside behind a pile of snow under the house. I hopped in the truck and went to the main park office and begged a park maint guy to come over he said only if you breathe first and stop panicking it cant be that bad. So he came over and shut the valve off inside by the tank. then ray came home and my stepdad came over, I called the calvery thinking the worse. we figure out its a fitting and a pipe thats the good news but we dont know what we are doing so we decided to call a plumber instead of screwing with it, the income tax money we planned on using for doors and a lawnmower are still in the bank. I took us 10 calls before we found someone that would even look at a mobile home the pipes are plastic so nobody wants to touch them. The guys that came over were great it took them half and hour and one length of pipe a couple of fitting and $85 dollars later we now have hot water that is not all over my floor. Ray used the wetvac and cleaned the mess before going back to work. Now that everyone is gone I can finally sit down and breath I feel like its 5pm already I am burnt out so I'm going to rest being back to work next week is going to be tough.
tonight we are going to measure the sofa I liked and go to eat that should be fun and tomorrow I plan on going to visit the girls at the portland fiber gallery I need to visit and get out so that is my plan oh we have to color eggs and do the easter thing too I need to remember that or Mike will be upset. ok later

ok what a morning already. I went for an interview at my dream job this morning I really hate interviews I get so nervous I sweat and ramble on and on. It was a tough one too I think the hardest question was have you ever protected yourself in selfdefense. and the answer is Yes against my ex husband I hope that doesnt hurt me because another question was if you took these three calls what order would you dispatch them in and one was a domestic violence call vs a cut finger vs a car accident. it brings alot of emotion and passion from me and I ramble. shit I hope I didnt fuck this up. hey I was honest about the last time I smoked dope or done drugs I should get some brownie points for that. oh well I have one more interview next week maybe that will be better its hard to practice because you dont get the nerves practicing as you do when there.

the doc did say I have a rib out of place last night he couldnt get it back in so I have to go see someone else on friday and hopefully back to work on monday. I miss working.
but I'm off to knit later.

well not much going on yesterday and I dont have anything planned for today.
Yesterday Jamie and I ran some errands it was nice spending time with her carting me around.
one of the things we did is go couch shopping when we get that tax refund we are going to do what the government wants spend it the couch I liked was at bobs in south portland what do you think. COUCH we might have to take out one of the cup holders otherwise it will be to long for the wall we are going back up on Saturday to measure it but so far this is the winning couch.
Then we called my meme and went to lunch at Applebees with her she wanted to spend some time with me while I was out of work so we went and picked her up. Also she paid so why not go get her and listen to her crab for a little while.
Another thing we looked at was tv's ours has a line on going through it and the volume goes up and down all by itself. What is it with tv's I have one that is 20 years old that still works good its small so its in the game room for the playstation and this one is 7 years old and its junk. we looked at bestbuy at a 32" I'm still not convinced though it doesnt look right because its a rectangle not a square. I have a beautiful tv stand so we cant go any bigger because we would need a new stand and thats not going to happen but looking at the store I cant figure out if I like it or not. Yes I am also working on convincing meme to get us a tv it will take some work but we'll keep trying.
and the last thing we looked at was a dishwasher I have never owned one and this will be the year I will have a dishwasher. the sucky part is it has to be only 18" we have absolutely no way to fit a full size dishwasher into our kitchen so we stopped at Vics on the way to pick up Mike at school. They keep one in stock at all times because alot of the elderly housing in the area uses them so they keep one in the werehouse just in case.
the funny thing is I'm still on painkillers (reason Jamie is driving ) thats the only reason I made it through the day the only thing is they make me sweat alot. I am sooo hot all the time meme was giving me hell for not wearing my jacket but man I was sticky.
Today I am Not doing anything or going anywheres unless Doc calls I'm still trying to get in to have him look at my shoulder. I feel like I have had a rib out of place since my surgery, he tryed to fix it before I left the hospital but its still really sore I cant take a deep breath and yawning forget it I want to die. lets say I'm hoping thats all it is. his office called yesterday but he was out delivering a baby so she said she would call me when she had an opening. we are having Rays buddy Tim over for dinner his birthday is sometime in the next week watch that is when the doc will call and Ray will have to drive me sorry Tim no choice on this one but isnt that the way things usually work.
****update**** the docs office just called @10am and they had a cancellation at you guessed it 5pm now this is the doc that is always running late so I will call @ 4:30 and see how far behind he is before driving all the way there. I did call Ray and tell him he should just take Tim out to dinner without me. Jamie will bring me to see Doc and maybe we will stop for burgers or something on the way home if its not midnight. ****

ok I'm going to work on my knitting with sara in my lap and maybe nap see ya later.

breakfast

mmmm look what I'm having for breakfast.

Peanut butter egg mmmm Kat they are sooooo good.

for those that dont know Kat and I have been best friends since like forever well the last couple of years my DH and I have gone to her parents house every snowstorm to shovel them out. We dont ask for money but mom pays us in food glorious food. So this weekend when Ray went down he picked up a batch of peanut butter eggs mmmm and a box of peanut butter fudge his favorite and some muffins for breakfast since she knows I'm not feeling to good to be cooking Thanks mom check this out.

onto spinning and knitting news. the last few months I have been spinning up a storm See. There are 8 balls there with a little over 200 yards in each I am planning on making this Gansey sweater for Ray. I told him the only catch was if it came out good and I'm really hoping it does I want to enter it in the fairs this fall. He was ok with that so after I finish my grandmothers cape which I'm sure she will hate that is my next project.

oh and I have to thank Jeannie. I had bought the pattern online and realized I didnt have the glossary for interweave to go with it. So I put out a call on knittyboard looking for the 2004 fall interweave book and she had it. I got it last week and in return send her a half pound of salt water taffe from dickinsons candy shop of course I had to buy some for myself too. I got it sent out to her on Friday after I got out of the hospital. I'm just glad Ray and Mike didnt eat it all on me.

Well my dad is surposed to take me out for breakfast I hope soon I'm starved not that the eggs werent filling. talk to you later

hee hee want to see my belly the yellow arrows are pointing to the holes the put in me to get my gallbadder out what pretty colors they are now. the one on the far left (my right) had the drain in it until Wednesday man that hurt like hell when he took it out.









on a lighter note a few years ago I was making homemade night lights out of mason jars I did a few craft fairs and stuff with them. DH and I were talking and decided to sell what I have left on ebay its my first time selling anything on here so wish me luck. I only put three up to start with I know I probably wont get what I put into them but its better than then the nothing I am getting with them sitting on a shelf out back oh here is a link to one of them nightlight

today we all got up and went to church for palm Sunday Michael was acolyte he is sooo cute see



his hair looks messy but he is growing it out again and wants it all brushed forward what a goober but it wasnt worth fighting over.




I'm going to lay down now I feel good one minute and shitty the next so late.
I'm out of work for the week and guarenteed to be bored so you might see me around quite a bit playing catch up for not posting for so long

I think I'm gonna try this blogging thing again. I spent last week in the hospital after getting my gallbladder out on Monday and it got me thinking I really, really want to re-connect with some of my old friends. Another friend is moving away and its really depressing me so now I'm on the hunt for the friends I had growing up. I'm courious what are you up to, are you ok, do you have a family, am I the only one stuck in Maine anymore. I am happily married and love my life but I often wonder what happened to the people I used to hang around with. The only one I really have contact with is Kat we have never not been friends but where did everyone else go?

Oh the place that was hosting my background is gone now I need to find a new one I love fairies, pixies, stuff like that I would really like to find something to do with knitting if you have any ideas send them my way.