just a quck update things are going better. Mikes meds are working but kinda making his tummy upset. we will bring that up at the next appointment. I turned in my first assignment for school and the teacher said great post. So that felt great. Ray and I have both been working a ton of hours just to make ends meet, we are just crossing our fingers for a decent income tax return to get caught up them maybe we can stay afloat and slow down a little.
I will post more when I have something interesting.

aaaahh why can husbands be such a pain in the ass sometimes. I love Ray more than life itself the only thing he does that drives me nuts is procrastinate and blow little things off HE doesnt think is importand but this time I'm ugly so I'm going to post instead of get in a fight does that make sense.
I went to work at 8am this morning to work a double till 9pm. I talked to Ray at 330 he was home, hadnt gotten Mike yet I said make sure the homework gets done. I got busy and called around 9 as I was getting out of work. Asked how was mikes day he said it sounded ok. I couldnt find his behavior sheets in his bag. I asked did he do his homework, Ray says yeah all but one page. Honey did you check the homework book. Yup he says. I just got home guess what. Mike has 3+ sheets to do in the am before we go to the dentist and then to school and oh his behavior sheets were in the front pockets with a note for us on how Bad his day was. but no he didnt find them and did they go to tae kwon do. you guessed it yup they did because Ray wanted to. could mike have missed his class for being bad at school and used that time for the homework yes he could have but did Ray look in all the pockets nope. ahhhhhh I'm so fustrated Mikes meds take a little while to kick in and start working and I have to deal with this in the morning. Last week Mike got in trouble because his homework wasnt finished and he told the truth, he told ray he had more to do and Ray said he couldnt find it so he got mad at mike, well mike told the teacher I told dad I had more and he said no which was the truth the teacher didnt believe him and sent him to the principals office who called dad, who admitted he was wrong and mike had told him. but it was wrong for him to put mike through that also.
ok I'm done venting I'm going to get my alarm clock and sleep in the spare room so I can get Mike up early get his meds into him and get the homework done.

happy new year

Welcome my first post of 2009 yeah the new year was over a week ago but it has been a super crazy couple of weeks. To start off Michael is doing great Christmas with him at home was the best ever, the new med he is on is really helping this coming Friday we meet with the new kid shrink who I think will increase the dose a touch more than what he is on and add a small dose adhd but we were told to expect that at the hospital so its not a surprise. Last week he was in much better spirits but still hyper and not he's being an 8 yr old boy hyper he is still bouncing off the walls but he was happy hyper so that was OK we can deal with some of that. He is such a smart little bugger. Here is a picture of Mike and Jamie at my moms Christmas afternoon I was working but Ray got me a picture.

I put in a crapload of hours the last couple of weeks so that should help with the bills after we get my dad paid off for fixing my truck we cant start on the Cc's that we got too high balances on that is our goal get all the CC's paid of in the next couple of years so I can get my little farm and Ray can get his little hunting spot.
The best news of all is this guess what I did Friday I registered for an online college course to finish my degree in Criminal Justice. Yeah for me I'm going back to school. mmm maybe I should explain back in 1993 I was in College at southern Maine tech for Law Enforcement Technology when I met my ex. Not my daughters father but my ex who ruined 7 years of my life and I had gave up everything for him and quit college the December of my second year of my Associates Degree. Who wants to see someone taking law classes while in an emotionally/physically abusive relationship. All these year later and with the luck of having the best husband I have my life and my dreams back. Ray supported me quitting my last job and taking a huge pay cut to become a police dispatcher and at this job I realize I can do everything I had ever dreamed of and gave up. My high school career of choice from the age of 16 was to be a game warden when I quit college I never thought it was possible. Since I got this job I have been doing some research on the requirements. One of them is a physical agility test which I started going to the gym and train for Nov 1st my goal is to do a 5k race and take the physical part of the test in June. and tho its not required for the job I don't think having my degree would hurt. Now all these years I thought I needed 5-6 classes to graduate. Well last week I called and had them do some research and new new program at SMCC is call Criminal Justice not Law Enforcement tech and I only need 3 yes 3 classes to get my degree so I begged my meme for help on the first payment, and last Friday I stood in line for 4 hours signed up, made my first of 3 payments and bought my book for one of the courses I needed, Its intro to criminology and at least if I get stuck I have an entire building full of guys to help me out. Yeah I'm excited, I'm going to try and take my Lit class over the summer and my last science class w/lab next fall and that's it I get my piece of paper.
And today I had to drive to Boston to pick Jamie up at Logan. I haven't seen her since last June around her 18Th birthday, when she told me she didn't need me anymore but I guess mom is good enough for a ride home which I really didn't mind maybe she will start coming around if not for me but for Michael. He was with me today for the Long ride and my mom came along to keep me company and to watch for signs for me. Jamie was very polite maybe its a start.
OK hows that for a makeup post. 2009 will be all about the good things. I am going to do whats best for me and my goals and pray that everyone stays healthy and working.
I leave you with a picture of Sara our pesty beagle.