ok alot has been going on around here we had hunting season a trip to ny for a loom christmas visits to mass but the biggest thing has been Michaels metal health, he has adhd and depression/anxiety issues. Lately he has been doing alot of the I hate myself and I wish I was dead. That has escalated and the last few days he has had a plan on how he wants to die. He spent yesterday and today in detension he was uncontrollable at school. and tonight we are admitting him to spring harbor for a medical eval I dont think I'm going to survive this I just want my little boy to be happy he has been sad for soo long. and I hope he is home for christmas. I have to go I cant stop crying and I have to drive him there please pray for me if your pray ok.