Mainiax

over did it

2010-01-14T04:31:00.002-05:00

So on Wednesday after I worked all night I headed straight to the Y. Started with a warm up I'm going to put my full routine down so I can kinda follow along as things change, this is what I did.
warm up
alt knee pull x10, alt quad pull x 10, hand walk x5, elevated crunch x 5 @ 10 #, reverse crunch x8,plank 2x 45 sec, side plank each side 20 sec, hip cross x 8, cobra x 8, modified push up 2x 8, sit ups 1-5-1, 1-3-1.
Balance
with ball triple threat 2x 8, single leg reach/traverse 1x5, s/l lift 2 @ 10#, split squats 2-8
medicine ball
squat chop x15 @ 10#, lateral lunge reach x5 each side @ 10#,
Chest/shoulders
seated cable pull down 2x12 @ 70#, bench press 2x8 @ 45#, bench dip 2x8, recline pull up 2x 8, curl x8 @ 10#, press x8 @ 10#, dead lift x8@ 10#, high pull x8 @10#
total time 31:45

after I got done all of this I rode the bike for 2 miles level 10 time 8:39
I decided it was getting late so I skipped the walk and headed to the pool. I'm glad I did because I got some great tips from the lifeguard. He told me to use these foamy things between my legs to help teach myself to breath left, he said I am doing more wrong than right at least. but using the foam things makes your body move properly while floating the back half, but after a full workout and swimming without legs I did my 9 laps 1.4 mile and called it good.

I got home about 10:45, cleaned the rabbit cages and went to bed, Mike woke me up around 3:30. I was half awake but stayed in bed till 5:30 when Ray brought supper home and we got ready for Tae kwon do. Mike had his class till 7 and we started ours at about 7:30 I told Ray, honey I'm done I'm going to head home with Mike and take a nap before work. So he road home with Keith and Mike came with me. I hit that pillow and was out in about 3 minutes got up and now I'm here at work and its slow, I'm glad I got that extra nap or I would be snoozing right now.

Not sure if I'm going to head to the Y tomorrow with Mike we'll see how long it takes me to fall asleep when I get out this morning. I will be going on Friday. I think I may do the routine twice a week and alternate the bike and walk/run but always do the swim I really enjoy that. See how it goes but right now my legs are very sore.

Tuesday

2010-01-13T05:13:00.002-05:00

I got out of work today and had an eye Dr appointment, what a rip off I have insurance that covers quite a bit but it still cost a ton because I wanted a contact exam and thats not covered or should I say it will cover either part of the glasses or the contact not both. I didnt get out of there till 10:15 so I went home and straight to bed. Mike kinda woke me up at 3:20 but he was good just to tell me he was home and getting ready cuz him and Ray were going to the Y. Ray is having it a little tougher than me the Y is really busy the times he can go, everyone is out of work at the same time on him. So based on that I have made myself a complete new routine lets see if I can follow it starting tomorrow when I get out of work. I'm going to run over do my thing try to get home by 10:30-11 sleep till 5 go to Tae Kwon Do then grap a nap from 8:30-10:15 and back to work.

Monday Update

2010-01-12T03:06:00.002-05:00

So this weekend was completely, unproductive on the workout front, Friday night I went to work at 11:30 and because I owed the guy that covered for me Christmas morning I had to repay him and work his day shift so I didnt get out until 4pm Saturday. When I did get out I was completely useless.
Sunday wasnt much better we drove to Mass to finish up our Christmas with Rays family. Nobody in my family had met Rays dad or Grandmother so we invited my meme to come with us for the ride. The added benefits we took her car which is really good on gas, and she paid most of dinner at Hilltop on the way home and after the food we had in Mass it was a very good dinner.

Monday morning I had FD training at work that only lasted a couple of hours so I headed to the Y directly after and this is what I did.

bike 2 miles: 7:45 minutes, level 10
walk/run, 25/0 minutes: 1.43 miles, speed 3.5, incline 4.0
swim,warmup, freestyle 50 yrds, cooldown 50 yrds:
1/4 mile 15 minutes, fastest lap 1:05 + 20 min relaxing swim=
total laps 20

I also did about 20 minutes of freeweight work on chest and shoulders between the walk & swim

When I got done I headed over to Walmart to spend the gift cards we got, actually spent more than the gift cards but we wont have to buy household stuff for quite a while which will be nice.
I went and picked up Mike at school and we headed to Trans in Biddeford they have the cheapest fruits and veggies around its run by two oriental people who are so funny she runs the registar never leaves it and never speaks, he packs your bags and RUNS to the door to hold it open for you and keeps saying Tank U tank U. The place is great I get a full hand basket plus 10lbs potatos for under $15 every time. Love it especially now that we have the dehydrator we have been drying lots of pineapples, apples and kiwi I cant wait for the strawberries and other good stuff to come back in season. I am trying to get the boys to eat more healthy snacks so I also picked up stuff to make my own trailmix/chexmix Mike helped and really liked it. Next adventure I'm also trying to get us away from refined stuff, going with natural sugar when I can and using wheat flour instead of white so far they guys havent minded. I cant go gluten free yet its just to costly right now maybe in the future. We really just love pasta to much still :-)

Training log

2010-01-09T01:24:00.004-05:00

I haven't been here in a long time and I decided today that this will be my training for a tri blog. I'm not very athletic but I'm not the type of person to sit still. So a few weeks ago I asked my dear hubby hey can have another kid, hey laughed nope I'm happy so I said ok lets move on if I cant have another baby lets get this body in better shape.
We just got memberships at the YWCA thru work, we went a couple of times and I met some people, I told one lady I have a goal I want to do tri-for a cure in 2011. She said why not this year you have 8 months mmmmm I'm thinking this may be do-able. The Y is having an indoor tri in March its 20 minutes on a bike, 20 minutes running and 20 minutes swimming and they add your times together. I have no plans on winning I just want to complete it.

This blog is now going to be all about my training or lack there of on bad days. I have a plan to go to the Y at least 3 times a week more if I'm not to tired as I work third shift some days are going to be more of a struggle to get there at times. I am going to have Ray take a picture of me in my swimsuit as embarrassing as it will be so I can get before and after pictures if this works I'm hoping there will be a big change between now and August.

Sooooo away we go

So on Thursday 1/7/10 I went to the Y with Mike I did 20 minutes on the Elliptical a little over a mile, then swam 6 laps, and played with Mike for a little while in the kids pool

Friday 1/8/10 went to the Y after working all night and swam 10 laps total had to stop at each end to catch my breath, as I noticed the other day when swimming I tend to only breath to the right side today I focused on trying to teach myself to breath to the left it was quite funny the lifeguard probably thought I was trying to drowned myself a couple of times. But anyways I did my 10 laps which is a little over 1/4 mile next time I'll try to watch my time to see how long it takes I forgot today.

I need to vent

2009-12-02T09:09:00.002-05:00

so this is my week:
the tv has a big purple line in it,(Geek squad is coming sometime before noon so little/no sleep today),
the truck is dead timing belt/motor (cant easily be fixed),
daughter is in court (dont ask she's 19),
and my crohns is acting up sores in my mouth (got into the Dr today at 12:30).
Oral surgeon for biopsy tomorrow to verify crohns on my gums (dont know how I will get there yet see truck issue above)

Calgone take me away......

2009-10-05T13:07:00.001-04:00

hey look I'm still alive LOL life is just so busy its crazy isnt it. So much has happened lately I wouldnt know where to start.
Just wanted to let you know I'm here and I'm ok. come find me on facebook or Ravelry if you want.

Later

2009-05-30T10:11:00.001-04:00

man I need to get back on here. I have been on face book everyday I forgot about all of you. dont worry I'll be back. Soon

giveaway!!

2009-02-22T00:44:00.002-05:00

get on over here for a chance to win a really cute bag and please say you came from here

I really love the green bag what is your favorite?

2009-02-19T00:32:00.003-05:00

have I ever told you every time I make a friend they move away. So the last few years I have been backing away from meeting or trying to get any new close friends but I did and guess what they moved away. So lets see the person I have known the longest is in Florida she went for very good reasons and I encouraged her, I miss her every day but she is in a good place except when one of us needs a ((hug)). The next person whom I was friends with both her and her husband divorced she moved to N.C. and promised to stay in touch, (nope didn't happen, I tried to reconnect a couple of times recently I tracked her down thru her sons facebook sometimes she responds most of the time not) When she left I stayed very close to her ex we were like brother and sister and I to this day think of him that way and will love him that way until I die a couple of years ago almost now he just stopped communicating with me I sent his kids cards for every birthday, his wife, him their anniversary and got nothing like I didn't exist. Then I meet a new friend through the sister of Rays friend she was the coolest and funnest ever but now she is in Tenn. and the communication is fading. I had to find out her husband is coming up in a couple of weeks on their website I feel like I've lost them too.

I have other friends now and I'm scared they will move away so to cope I find my self pulling away even though I really don't want to. I have taken every bit of overtime at work I can a double yesterday on my day off, and another on Friday, and next Sunday I work my day off again. yeah we need the money but at the same time I'm lonely. Kinda goes along with my last post of being tired of people maybe I'm really just getting tired of being left. OK I'm done with my sobby but this is why I don't get close to people anymore and am trying to separate myself I cant and wont get hurt any more. Ray always says he wishes I had more friends but I have him and mike and Jamie what more do I need they cant every really leave they are stuck with me.

I do have to say the last couple of weeks with mike have been absolutely wonderful. he is doing great. this week is school vaca we had Monday off together and went out to lunch. I worked Tuesday but Wednesday morning we laid around bed snuggled laughed and talked and I cried after, he said why are you crying mom and all I could say is I love you more every day buddy don't ever forget that because mommy wont.

well I took an ambien before I started this and I think its starting to work I'm typing slower. Sorry this post is so blah but this is how I feel later.

update on Friday: just found out another friend is moving to florida in a couple of weeks her daughter is having her first baby she is going down to visit and after the baby is settled she is coming back for her stuff. hey Kat if you see lou lou she will be in Tampa so dont be shocked LOL.

I'm tired

2009-02-04T10:55:00.002-05:00

I am tired, tired of councelers, tired of schools, tired of work, tired of cleaning, just tired. I havent been around much visiting friends when I'm not working I'm running to appointments for everything. Yesterday I had to meet with the school phychologist at 745 she is doing a new psych test on Mike, my urinary physical therapist at 11, pick up michael and bring him to the dentist at 1pm. Then at 5 Mikes counceler came over the house to work with us as a family. I kinda snapped at her. by the time she got here I had enough. She said something and I snapped at her I didnt mean to but I really want things back the way they were before Christmas when it was us and the dr only taking care of Michael.

yeah he has a team working for him at school now but really I think this is all to much. the counceler thinks him not wanting to do his homework is an underlying statement about how he feels about himself. mmm you know before he had the reaction to the med we didnt have this "team" and all was good this is all starting to get overwhelming. This Friday we go meet with the psychologist again and if he doesnt spend more then 10 minutes getting to know mike and just plays with his meds and sends us on our way again I'm done. I was given a pamphet for a place in portland I might try and that is a might. Can the kid have to many people working for him. He has his teacher, the behavior specialist, the guidence counceler, the principal,vs principal, school nurse all on his school team. the regular counceler and his psychiotrist. and of course somewhere in all this do where do Ray and I get our say. I feel like we are losing our grip as parents with all this imput I just want to go back to the way it was.
Most of these people dont know him, but they all say they want to help.

now can you understand why I'm done, I have to go do my homework now, just got home from the gym which has become my outlet, I just want to sit here have a good cry and go back to the way things were.
ok I'm done venting later

2009-01-22T15:13:00.003-05:00

just a quck update things are going better. Mikes meds are working but kinda making his tummy upset. we will bring that up at the next appointment. I turned in my first assignment for school and the teacher said great post. So that felt great. Ray and I have both been working a ton of hours just to make ends meet, we are just crossing our fingers for a decent income tax return to get caught up them maybe we can stay afloat and slow down a little.
I will post more when I have something interesting.

2009-01-12T21:58:00.002-05:00

aaaahh why can husbands be such a pain in the ass sometimes. I love Ray more than life itself the only thing he does that drives me nuts is procrastinate and blow little things off HE doesnt think is importand but this time I'm ugly so I'm going to post instead of get in a fight does that make sense.
I went to work at 8am this morning to work a double till 9pm. I talked to Ray at 330 he was home, hadnt gotten Mike yet I said make sure the homework gets done. I got busy and called around 9 as I was getting out of work. Asked how was mikes day he said it sounded ok. I couldnt find his behavior sheets in his bag. I asked did he do his homework, Ray says yeah all but one page. Honey did you check the homework book. Yup he says. I just got home guess what. Mike has 3+ sheets to do in the am before we go to the dentist and then to school and oh his behavior sheets were in the front pockets with a note for us on how Bad his day was. but no he didnt find them and did they go to tae kwon do. you guessed it yup they did because Ray wanted to. could mike have missed his class for being bad at school and used that time for the homework yes he could have but did Ray look in all the pockets nope. ahhhhhh I'm so fustrated Mikes meds take a little while to kick in and start working and I have to deal with this in the morning. Last week Mike got in trouble because his homework wasnt finished and he told the truth, he told ray he had more to do and Ray said he couldnt find it so he got mad at mike, well mike told the teacher I told dad I had more and he said no which was the truth the teacher didnt believe him and sent him to the principals office who called dad, who admitted he was wrong and mike had told him. but it was wrong for him to put mike through that also.
ok I'm done venting I'm going to get my alarm clock and sleep in the spare room so I can get Mike up early get his meds into him and get the homework done.

happy new year

2009-01-10T22:22:00.004-05:00

Welcome my first post of 2009 yeah the new year was over a week ago but it has been a super crazy couple of weeks. To start off Michael is doing great Christmas with him at home was the best ever, the new med he is on is really helping this coming Friday we meet with the new kid shrink who I think will increase the dose a touch more than what he is on and add a small dose adhd but we were told to expect that at the hospital so its not a surprise. Last week he was in much better spirits but still hyper and not he's being an 8 yr old boy hyper he is still bouncing off the walls but he was happy hyper so that was OK we can deal with some of that. He is such a smart little bugger. Here is a picture of Mike and Jamie at my moms Christmas afternoon I was working but Ray got me a picture.

I put in a crapload of hours the last couple of weeks so that should help with the bills after we get my dad paid off for fixing my truck we cant start on the Cc's that we got too high balances on that is our goal get all the CC's paid of in the next couple of years so I can get my little farm and Ray can get his little hunting spot.
The best news of all is this guess what I did Friday I registered for an online college course to finish my degree in Criminal Justice. Yeah for me I'm going back to school. mmm maybe I should explain back in 1993 I was in College at southern Maine tech for Law Enforcement Technology when I met my ex. Not my daughters father but my ex who ruined 7 years of my life and I had gave up everything for him and quit college the December of my second year of my Associates Degree. Who wants to see someone taking law classes while in an emotionally/physically abusive relationship. All these year later and with the luck of having the best husband I have my life and my dreams back. Ray supported me quitting my last job and taking a huge pay cut to become a police dispatcher and at this job I realize I can do everything I had ever dreamed of and gave up. My high school career of choice from the age of 16 was to be a game warden when I quit college I never thought it was possible. Since I got this job I have been doing some research on the requirements. One of them is a physical agility test which I started going to the gym and train for Nov 1st my goal is to do a 5k race and take the physical part of the test in June. and tho its not required for the job I don't think having my degree would hurt. Now all these years I thought I needed 5-6 classes to graduate. Well last week I called and had them do some research and new new program at SMCC is call Criminal Justice not Law Enforcement tech and I only need 3 yes 3 classes to get my degree so I begged my meme for help on the first payment, and last Friday I stood in line for 4 hours signed up, made my first of 3 payments and bought my book for one of the courses I needed, Its intro to criminology and at least if I get stuck I have an entire building full of guys to help me out. Yeah I'm excited, I'm going to try and take my Lit class over the summer and my last science class w/lab next fall and that's it I get my piece of paper.
And today I had to drive to Boston to pick Jamie up at Logan. I haven't seen her since last June around her 18Th birthday, when she told me she didn't need me anymore but I guess mom is good enough for a ride home which I really didn't mind maybe she will start coming around if not for me but for Michael. He was with me today for the Long ride and my mom came along to keep me company and to watch for signs for me. Jamie was very polite maybe its a start.
OK hows that for a makeup post. 2009 will be all about the good things. I am going to do whats best for me and my goals and pray that everyone stays healthy and working.
I leave you with a picture of Sara our pesty beagle.

Crazy couple of months around here.

2008-12-27T17:03:00.000-05:00

ok where to start the last couple of months have been hell for our family, we didnt get any deer, had an awful ice storm for starters then it all came to a head last week.

As most of you know Mike has ADHD and anxiety and has been on meds for well over a year. The start of the school year we had to switch Mikes meds he had outgrown the one he was on. Since then it has been trial and error and it sucked. He had also been on an anti depressant. While we were looking for a new adhd med the Dr. upped his anti. That was where the bad stuff started. The week after Thanksgiving we started on the new dose. A few days later he had a bad day getting in all sorts of trouble and it kept getting worse we started counceling at home for the family, he had a behavor specialist at school, peer groups going nothing was working and he starting saying things in class like "you all hate me I'm going to kill myself see how you like that" that alone concerned us but he was saying it alot so we assumed it was a cry for attention. But at the same time we removed all knives, guns and dangerous objects from out house Just in case. This was difficult for two hunters to do let me tell you. Then Mike told his councelor he had a plan for HOW he was going to do it. Now all the beacons went flashing BLINK BLINK BLINK. Ok we are still fine until last week. Thursday he ended up in the principals office for in school suspension. They had called for me to come and get him and I refused for two reasons first I had to work at 2 and second if I had went and got him he would be like ok if I get in enough trouble I get to go home and do what I want. Wrong I as not playing that game.

Then comes Friday I'm working a double Rays truck is in the shop for a blown thermostat and I get a call. Mike is in the hall at school and has tried to stick something in the light socket and was caught his answer "I dont care if I die." The principal and his/our counceler called and said we really need to get Mike evaluated by psych this isnt normal. I call Ray and we met at home. I think it was the hardest decision we have ever made as parents to bring your child to a crisis center. We picked him up at school and just told him we were bringing him to someone to talk to. The lady there promply said he need to be treated in house they could adjust his meds faster with 24/7 nurses watching him. It was snowing really bad out so we went home and waited for them to call and say the bed was ready for him. We told Mike and to be honest I dont think he really cared he was more like whatever.

We get there and spend hours signing him in. Even when we left after telling him they would help get his meds right he still wasnt that upset about staying I almost think he knew he needed help.

Over that weekend they didnt give him any meds Saturday he was mean nasty and rotten to everyone, Sunday he was better very teary and cried alot that we hated him. We tried to spend short visits with him I would go in the am on the way to work and Ray went in the afternoon for dinner.

Also over the weekend Mike got a room makeover, my stepdad had built Mike a loft bed so he could play under the bed a couple of years ago and we had planned on cutting it down lower so the dog could jump up with him. At the last minute my stepdad decided to just take the old bed down and buy him a new frame, meme said she would buy the mattress. So my mom and I went to "bob's" and got mike a captains bed with the drawers underneath and a bookcase headboard.

Sunday afternoon my truck started making noises I made it to work, the abs light had come on but we thought it was just snow in the brakes so I parked in the garage at work to dry it out. That night when I left it was still on and the noise was so bad I just crossed my fingers I would make it home.

Monday morning I dropped my truck off at the garage and begged everyone to borrow money to get it fixed I thought it was the transmission but it turned out to be the $450 dollar hub/bearings, the mechanic said I was lucky I made it there. Great huh.

Monday Mike met with the in house psycologist, then Ray and I met with him seperatly in the afternoon and we decided to try a mood stablizer drug starting that day.

OH my God what a difference. Tuesday morning Mike called all polite" what time are you coming mom." He was friendly and nice. When I got there the nurses said this is amazing he is great, polite, helpful, respectful things we hadnt heard said about him in months. We talked to the Dr again and begged for him to be able to come home for christmas and he said I dont see why not. Wednesday I worked days and my boss let me leave to pick him up he was so excited to come home, me too the boss said I didnt have to come back she covered the second shift for me. We went to church that night, Mike didnt make it through he fell asleep and promptly wet himself, I think its because he was so relaxed being home. Thursday we had the best Christmas morning every. Then I had to go to work and the boys went to my moms for dinner.

I got to spend today with him before work and its a different kid I'm still in shock. and love Mike even more now than I could have thought possible It was hard to be around him at all for awhile there.

I want to thank everyone that was thinking of us and praying for us through this difficult time. We still have a ways to go we are all trying and lots of things to work on but thank you for being my friends.

2008-12-19T17:13:00.002-05:00

ok alot has been going on around here we had hunting season a trip to ny for a loom christmas visits to mass but the biggest thing has been Michaels metal health, he has adhd and depression/anxiety issues. Lately he has been doing alot of the I hate myself and I wish I was dead. That has escalated and the last few days he has had a plan on how he wants to die. He spent yesterday and today in detension he was uncontrollable at school. and tonight we are admitting him to spring harbor for a medical eval I dont think I'm going to survive this I just want my little boy to be happy he has been sad for soo long. and I hope he is home for christmas. I have to go I cant stop crying and I have to drive him there please pray for me if your pray ok.

ahh hunting we will go a hunting we will go

2008-10-31T23:45:00.002-04:00

So tomorrow is opening day of hunting season and we are ready kinda. I had to work tonight and I can only stay out half a day because I have to work tomorrow but thats ok maybe I will get lucky. Michael is coming up in the tree stand for the first time this year no more ground hunting for us. Meme bought him a kids harness to be safe we wouldnt let him up without it.
But let me tell you I picked a great week to start going to the gym. Tuesday I did a spinning class, Wednesday kickboxing, Thurs and Friday I did 1.5 miles on the treadmill then either road the bike or did the epilitical thing. Tomorrow I have to climb 15 feet up a tree and my legs are so sore I can barely walk. But I will never admit this to Ray nope I'm gonna suck it up and get the biggest deer I hope.
Well I'm beat and have to be on the road for 4:30 am keep your fingers crossed for me.

Weekend of FUN!!

2008-10-20T12:51:00.009-04:00

on our way to Rhinebeck we stopped at Webs and bought a few things. This is my little stash I got a bunch of cashsilk for 3.99 a ball and a few other thinks to play with
Then we were on our way to Melody's cousins. After dinner Bristol started to teach me to make socks. Two at once from the toe up. A couple of weeks ago we dyed sock blanks and that is what I am using on size 1 yes 1 needles the smallest I have every used. Here is what I have done so far.
The next morning when I got up the early bird that I am woke Everyone up and said lets go lets go and we went. Here I am at Rhinebeck
and this is my stash I got 4 different sock yarns, those should last awhile since I'm just learning. the three beautiful braids of roving to the left that I am going to make a 3 ply with and then decide what to make. the big bump is a mystery bump have no idea what that will be and that is half the fun. and the two on top I think I'm going to make a chest warmer or another word for vest out of them.

oh and before I forget did you see the new little wheels the man was selling in the big building. Well Portland Fiber Gallery will be the dealer from them in Maine, Melody bough one to play with its the coolest little thing we all loved it.

And check out this treefrog isnt it the cute I just had to take a picture of it.

Weekend Away

2008-10-17T09:12:00.002-04:00

to Rhinebeck we will go, to Rhinebeck we will go hi ho the dairy oh to Rhinebeck we will go. Can you tell I'm excited I'm sitting here waiting for my friends to pick me up because I'm not driving another yea for me. and we will be on our way to Webs then tomorrow to Rhinebeck, no kids or hubbys just us girls and building after building of fiber glorious fiber. I have been looking forward to this for months and months I put in for this weekend off the day I got hired at my new job and told them this is my one big trip a year and I will not miss it for anything but death in the close family only. We are staying with Melody's cousin so that is a savings this year no hotel but I would have slept in my car if I had to. I may not buy much as I dont need much but just being around so many people that have the same things in common and dont think I'm crazy for loving fiber as much as I do alone is worth the trip. Ok time to check and make sure I didnt forget anything again before I go I'll take lots of pictures and report back on Monday.

Oh and did I tell you as of Monday I go back on second shift it was so slow on third I think it hurt me more than helped with my training just no enough call volume to get much done. but thats another story Later Gator

disappearing blog roll

2008-10-09T16:50:00.001-04:00

aaahhhh
blogrolling disappeared and I don't have a back up program and lost everyones links please help me. I need a new blog roll to use and I re-need your blog link. You can email it to me if you want. Mainiax at G mail dot com.

thanks a bunch.

other good news one more week at midnights and I go back to second shift which is much much much busier the boss wanted me to learn radios on nights and it has been so slow I'm really behind the other person that is training now like a month of dispatching behind which sucks because I cant get OT until I'm completely trained. oh well what are you going to do.

I WON, I WON, I WON

2008-09-28T16:23:00.004-04:00

My sweater won first place for homespun/handknit and it won the Judges pick it was in a special case and everything. We got to the fair early to have Michaels bunny tattoo'd and Ray went for a walk he came back a few minutes later and said Hey I have to show you something come with me for a minute. I didn't think the building was even open yet and there it was I was so excited I almost cried and of course everyone I wanted to call and tell about it didn't answer their phones isn't that always the way.

Michael did very well also for his first show. Michael won the youth angora and got second in the overall french angora competition with the adults. The judge just said she needed a little more meat on her hips she has a beautiful coat. the adult competition was tough he kept going back and forth with her and another jr. doe. oh my god if one more person asked if she was able to be bred yet. Damn. I need a pure french brown boy LOL not. When I took the picture in front of the sign he had just lost the youth best in show and was pretty sad. Next Sunday he is entered in the pet rabbit and guinea pig show. That should be alot easier for him. I'll take many more pictures I'm sure.

sweaters, shawls and fairs

2008-09-26T08:04:00.007-04:00

I cant believe its been a few weeks since I've posted Third shift is a killer. so let me catch you up. I entered MeMe's shawl in the Cumberland fair and got third the weird thing is I couldnt find the shawl that got second kinda odd. here is a picture its the dark purple one in the middle
Last Saturday night I went to work at 9pm got out Sunday morning and went to the fair with Ray, Mike and Meme I wanted to see how I did and Mike wanted to go on rides. By 3pm on no sleep I was sooo done and it got warm out so that didnt help me stay awake. Glad Ray was there to drive us home.

Last week I finally finished Ray's sweater I have been working on it since finishing Memes. I spun all the fiber and worked my fingers off to finish it in time for the Fryeburg Fair, Now the problem was the times to drop it off were Thursday day, Friday all day or Saturday am and what was my schedule I had to work Wed,Thur and Friday nights mmmm can I drive up there to drop it off on no sleep its only 1.5 hours each way. I was nervous so I email the super nice lady that is in charge and told her my situation she was great and let me drop it off Wednesday morning she was going to be there cleaning for a few hours in the am. It worked out perfect Michael was out of school for teachers workshop so he road up with me to keep me company or should say kept me away saying "are we there yet?" two hundred times. It was neat seeing the fair being set up. Then I dropped him off at daycare, came home took a nap and went to work. The next week is going to be another crazy one. Sunday we have to be at the fair with the bunny at 7:30 am(remember 1.5 hour drive Yawn) so she can get tattooed to enter in the contest. then we want to walk around for a minute and of course see how Rays sweater did. We have to be back on the road at 2 so Ray and Mike can go on a hike with the scouts. I have to work Mon,Tues,Wed and Thurs nights. Go back to the fair next Sunday for the kids bunny contest and then up on Monday to pick the sweater up. and do you know what I get if I actually win 9 dollars LOL how do you like that 6 hours of driving to drop it off and pick it up, 6 hours driving to bring the bunny up twice just to win trophies. Man I must be crazy. Well after that is hunting season. I wish I saw an end in site but it is a long ways off at this point. I leave you now with some pictures of Rays sweater he is such a good sport about trying it on every time its 80 out, no wonder I love him so much. here is the making of rays sweater starting at the beginning
spinning spinning spinning, then two ply, wash and dry, then ball up the yarn, then start the body

the back is finished, then the front, then an arm. and finally two arms isnt it great. I told Ray he could only wear it at family function where it is 100 in the aunts house so I can show him oops the sweater off to everyone.

WARNING,WARNING WARNING IF YOU CLICK ON A PICTURE IT HAS WONDERFUL DETAIL BUT ITS HUGE!!!!!

2008-09-07T19:25:00.002-04:00

well the surgery is over and why is it always me that ends up having problems after. Let me explain. The surgery went as planned on Wednesday the Dr. got the stone and is sending it out to be analyzed. When he was done he left a stint in to hold the tube between the kidney and bladder open because your body doesn't like strange things in it,it tends to swell and this stint was to hold things open. There was a string sticking out of me to pull in 3-4 days. So I go home around 11pm I feel wet really wet I go to the bathroom thinking its just a little leaking no big deal, I put a pad on, a towel on the bed and try to go back to sleep. As soon as I lay down the leaking turns into the faucet being turned on I cant stop the pee. I'm freaking out I go into the bathroom and sit down it wont stop so I call the Dr. he said the stint must have moved and opened the bladder door, just pull it out. OK if you say so this thing must have been a foot long and abracadabra the pee stops. I'm thinking there must be a catch, well there was.
Thursday morning I get up all is OK I run Ray a shirt he forgot he had to dress nice for some big shots coming to the company and I run up to my friend Lori's to pick up my rovings. While at Lori's I started getting crampy so I told her I had to go home. On my way the pain is getting worse and worse and worse. I didnt think I would make it to the house 15 minutes away. I get home take two percocetts and lay down its not going away at all. I call the Dr's office and they say go get an x-ray and come in umm lady I just took two perc and I'm alone I dont think I can walk let alone drive in this condition, so she puts me on hold and tells me to take a cab or ambulance to the hospital and they will let them know I'm coming. I called Ray bawling come and get meeeeee. When he gets me there I called my mommy to come since Ray had to get back to the meeting. They gave me a shot of something stronger than morphine wow that was nice. I was in so much pain by then that my entire body was trembling it was scary and much worse than the kidney stone ever was. we did an ultrasound and found no blockage but everything was enflamed and irritated re: original reason they put the stint in. The Dr decided to keep me over on morphine until the swelling went down and I was more comfy what a nice guy.
They let me out Friday afternoon. I have been vegging on the couch since, I had to call in to work last night I didnt think going in on drugs and making life or death decisions was a good idea. Today I felt a little better I drank half a bottle of fleet stuff yesterday and have been taking lots of stool softners and today I finally had a poop I know TMIF but besides it ripping me a new ass it felt wonderful after 5 days. I hope this is the first and last kidney stone I ever get.

I want to thank everyone for the well wishes if you could do same for my friend Kat she is going in for a major neck operation tomorrow(monday) hopefully this is the last of the many spine operations she has already gone through. I will be thinking of her all day. Good luck my friend.

2008-09-01T07:36:00.001-04:00

fyi I have to go in wednesday Sept 3rd to have the kidney stone removed and as of right this second it fucken hurts again but I refuse to go to the ER I hope. I worked third shift last night just got home and in sooo much pain. and of course its a holiday the dr covering for my urologist said take two percisets and a hot tub to relief the pain so thats where I'm going wish me luck for wednesday ok.

thanks.

2008-08-21T11:00:00.005-04:00

Hey Kat linked to me so I better put up a new post or I'll look bad.LOL Its the only time anyone ever finds my site.

Not much going on around her except work and running the bathroom I finally decided that my local hospital dr is a quack. a couple of months ago I went in to the ER the DR. said over and over I must have kidney stone well guess what nope it was my crohns. On the 3rd of this month I ended up back there and guess what she said I had a kidney stone this time and a uti. She gave me some scripts and sent me on my way. So this past weekend I was hurting again on that same side. So I call my mom crying and decided I am not going to the ER I had plenty of pain killers left and that was all they were going to do is dope me up give me an anti and send me home heck I can do that. I called my primary who gave me something for the burning/frequent pee thinking it was a bladder infection again and said if it still was bad early in the week to call him. It was and I did. Yesterday I went in to see him and he called the hospital to get my c-t scan results and know what he found yes I did have a kidney stone on the 3rd but also my intestines were really enflamed on the left side. What on the left? I told the ER I usually had crohns problems on the right. This is a completely new problem. Doc probed around on my belly and sent me right off the table. He thinks that yes the stone was there but it was small and my intestines were causing the pain and now because they are swollen they are pushing on my bladder and making me feel like I have to pee every 5 minutes. He wants me to see my gastro guy as soon as possible and as my luch would have it he is on vacation until Tuesday and I can get in with his nurse pract on the 5th. My primary is going to call him when he gets back and update him on what is happening. I just hope it doesnt get worse between now and then.

That is all the new drama here I have been working, knitting, going to church oh speaking of that here is a picture of Mike last week at vacation bible school. I worked all week 7-5 then went with him 5-8 every day Friday was the big show and Sunday that sang at mass he loved it all week and screws off during the show every year but hey what are you going to do hes a kid. Have a great weekend tonight is my last night and I have the next two days off to sleep yea

timing is everything

2008-08-07T10:42:00.003-04:00

for those that know my you know I have crohns and a couple of months ago I had a partial blockage. Since then I have been really careful about what I eat. Well last week I had corn on the cob for the first time since then. Friday morning I got up feeling crampy, took a pain killer went back to bed and got up fine. I worked Friday night and Sat night. I had talked to Kats dad about going down to see Jo and the girls on Sunday after church everything was ok until I drove home Saturday night. I thought I just had to pee all the way home, I got home went to the bathroom and the pain in my side just kept getting worse and worse, finally I had to wake Ray crying what do I do I promise I will never eat corn again. He told me to go to the hospital and get checked out I knew I couldnt drive so I called my dad luckily he was home and not at his girlfriends. We did like 80mph all the way through town to the hospital. They at least didnt make me wait it was midnight on Saturday/Sunday but it did take 3 nurses, a doctor and seven tries to finally get an iv in by then I was crying please anything for the pain. once I had a double shot of morphine in me I got a ride to the c-scan I was so doopy I felt like I was in one of the shows where you see the lights above the stretcher going down the hall la la la Then I went back to my room and waited until 4am for them to tell me I had a kidney stone and a UTI well that was a first at least it wasnt a blockage that was my worse fear since I have only been at this job a couple of months and that would have laid me up for awhile. now about the timing is everything my insurance went into effect on Friday and this was Saturday my body was nice to me the entire time we were on Rays shitty insurance with really high copays. Sunday I didnt make it to see Jo, I hope they understand I never got out of my p j's well I take that back around 10 am Michael came in the room and said nana and grandma are stopping in on the way back north so I got up and helped pick up and put some shorts on while they were here. Monday I had to go to Augusta for a training class I apologized to the teacher before class because I had to keep running out to pee. and nope I never did find the stone in strainer of course I might have missed it but I do feel better. So that was my weekend how was yours?

Later

ps still no word from my daughter but I did talk to her dad and she is mad at him and her grandmother too. grandma took the car away because she didn't pay the insurance and then took off to stay with friends. So at least it not just me she hates anymore. I so hope she finds a way to see what she is doing to everyone including herself and her little brother that misses her so much. here is a picture of them happy together

2008-08-01T09:25:00.004-04:00

Have I told you how much I love my job. Well I do except for having to memorize every trooper in southern Maine that has been my only slow learning point there are alot of troopers. The other thing I like is working second shift I get to knit during the day if its raining and Ive brought Mike to school its like having more time off the house is sooo quite, most of the hours I'm working the boys are sleeping so I'm not missing anything at home. This is what I have been working on, Rays sweater I have the front and back done and am now working on the sleeves so I can get it done for the fair. While I kept taking pictures Ray was like are you done, are you done, you cant tell but it was almost 90 out the the sweater is wool. He is such a good sport.

This week Micheal, Meme and I went to funtown/splashtown meme even went in the pool with Michael for a few minutes. She is 79 and did I tell you she works there. This is her 12th year running the teacups ride. She loves it talking to the french people all day and it keeps her out of the house. She was surposed to work 3 days but they talked her into 4 because they dont have much help. Here are a couple of pictures. The little boy is a friend michael made on a ride he is Mass. They hung out together the rest of the day his parents dont like rides and this ride they are on I just cant do the backwards anymore so I was very happy Michael had someone to ride with that wasnt me. I did go on everything else with him. and one more picture of Michael driving meme in the old cars its the only ride she goes on.

2008-07-15T20:47:00.004-04:00

well lets see since my last post I have been super busy. I have been to training, working all kinds of hours and taking care of our new pet named coyote. yes a bunny named coyote dont ask me ask Michael. and yes we have a rabbit dog that loves her new pet bunny. Then we went camping/canoeing for a weekend I didnt take any pictures we were so busy that I didnt even think of it and it didnt help that the camera was back at the camp and let me say that breezy acres is the best camp around we loved everything about it. and then today I did something to top everything else off since my last post I went and got a haircut and donated it to locks of love second time picture this is the third time today that I have donated and I never regret it.

2008-06-26T10:43:00.002-04:00

what a great week so far I went to school for 2 day to learn 911 dispatching and I picked up my new spinning wheel at the post office today. of course I have to work tonight so I will be putting it together tomorrow with the help of my friends at the Portland Fiber Gallery. I will take lots of pictures. Michael is spending the night at meme's house so I will be able to sleep in tomorrow and then after I get done putting the wheel together and going to the library I have to meet Mike and Meme in Biddeford for the Lakermesse parade. We havent missed a year yet so I'm glad I'm not working this year.
and no my daughter still isnt talking to me but when she needs something I'm sure I will hear from her.
So this is my flyby update later.

teenagers

2008-06-18T06:29:00.002-04:00

Why is it teens are such ass's. I mean Kat and I were parties that is true but I was never hateful towards my parents never. I never called my mom a f***en c**t like I was called yesterday. I did something stupid I put a cell phone in my name for my daughter under the condition that if she went over on her minutes I would shut it off untill the next billing cycle so the bill wouldnt get out of hand. So yesterday I called her and asked her to go to lunch and the phone kept disconnecting so I looked on the website to see if there was an issue and in the last couple of days she went 87 minutes over the the cycle doesnt start over until the 28th. So I tryed to call her over and over and she wouldnt answer. I left a message hey call me so we can talk about this or I'm shutting it off. no call so I shut it off. I drove up to her house and got screamed at that I'm this and that and turn my phone on right now. Well the deal was she would pay the bill its due next wednesday I am out of town next wednesday so I wanted it paid early and she said no if I dont turn it back on right this minute I dont have a daughter anymore and she never wants to see me again.
Then told me to get out of her f***en house or she was calling the cops. I never raised my voice not once I am so over yelling and fighting with anyone. The reason she said she needs the phone soo bad is she applyed for jobs and now they cant get in touch with her.so I say fine bring the phone over here I will turn it back on and if a job calls I will give you the message but I am not letting you run up this bill.
Last night about 9 she starts texting me begging. So I told her to call them on friday when she turns 18 and put it in her name (they wont she has no credit I asked) end of story well that wasnt good enough she said I know you have some of my savings bonds and I want them. I do have one a $50 from her baptist and she says If I find out you have more or spent all the money I'm surposed to get when I turn 18 dad is getting a lawyer and suing you. You know I wish I had money to give her but I dont.I dont know what the hell she is talking about we are not a well to do family or why would me and my dad be living in trailers. She said I talk to meme, and grammy and grampy and they tell me things. Well thats kinda funny I talk to every one of them at least 3 times a week and grampy for example hasnt heard from her since x-mas, and meme since she loaned her 200 and never got paid back. Then to top it off after she has me crying screaming that she hates me and wants whats coming to her Mike starts crying from his room that he will never see his sister again, So I made her talk to him and then said Jamie do what you have to I'm done your not gonna make my house a battle ground to get your way Ray and I are happy so enough and I'm not turning the phone back on until its either paid for or in your name but I'm done fighting with you my phone is off to you good-bye.
Yesterday afternoon when I called the cell phone co they said that to shut if completely off it will cost me the last two bills and 200 to get out of the contract oh she wont give me the phone itself because she paid for it that is fine whatever. Or I can pay 40 a month for 2 years to full fill the contract. So I called my mom that I never talk to and told her, she called me back and said that she would take the phone and pay the monthly bill. So if I never talk to my mom why would she do that and tell me I'm right and not to give in. So I bearly slept last night but last time she pulled this crap I vowed not to let me make me a basket case ever again that I need to live my life for my son and husband and for me. Am I wrong to feel this way I hope not will she regret doing this to me someday I hope so.
I know this is a long post but I had to get it out and what better place.

2008-06-15T07:43:00.002-04:00

What a crazy couple of weeks. I finished my old job last friday the 6th, went directly from there to bring Michael to the dentist, then went and met my friends to load up for the fiber frolic. Shawn and I spent the weekend in Windsor working his booth selling fiber and alpaca yarn for his farm Sunshine alpacas. Sunday we got done at 4 loaded up drove 2 hours home and unpacked by the time I got home it was 8:00 I dumped my suitcase into the wash and reloaded it for Monday. I left the house monday at 5:15 to meet my new coworker in Auburn then off to school. Here is a Picture of where I went to school for 3 days. Cool isnt it I guess it was a girls school many years ago. the inside is pretty modern but finding your way around and to lunch was tricky their are stairs and hallways everywheres.

we went to class 8-4 Monday and Tuesday, Wednesday we didnt get out until 8pm. then I had to drive 2 hours home I was soooo tired Thursday I had the day off had all kinds of stuff planned to do and didnt do anything but clean Mike's room and laundry.
Friday night was my first official night of work/training and let me say I think I'm reallly gonna like this job. Yes it was friday the 13th but it was busy and you never know what is happening next. it could be someone lost on the turnpike or a siezure, or a car accident. I cant tell about anything that happens but you get the idea. Yesterday we all went fishing down at the river after Mikes ballgame. and today its pouring so I think we are going to spend a quiet day at home.

Hope all is well with everyone.

Finally

2008-05-29T21:26:00.002-04:00

I can finally tell you I have been holding it back for a week. But tomorrow morning I am giving my weeks notice at my job. I have been dispatching for a repair company that fixes construction equipment for the last couple of years. Well last week I got offered my dream job as a PD dispatcher. When I was in JR. high I did a report on the enhanced 911 system before it was even in Maine, I called LA. Cal. to do a phone interview with there chief to learn about the system because they were the first to use it. Back in February I was cleaning my shed and found that JR. high report. After high school I had went to college for one year for accounting and then transfered to another college and went for a year and a half towards my degree in Law Enforcement Tech then I met the ex ass quit school and gave up my dream. Well I found that report Ray and I talked and he said you know what start applying around see what happens follow your dream its time. Man I love that guy. I did two interviews got offered one part time job which I turned down to wait and see about the other one they had only offered part time because I didnt have experience. The wait paid off I got the position I really wanted the big test was a poligraph, it was the most nerve wracking things I have every done but I passed.
Next Tuesday I have to go to HR and do all my paper work then I go for training the following week for 3 days. I will be working 2nd shift once I am trained which I think will help with Michael I will be able to spend alot more time with him over the summer.
Hopefully tomorrow they dont let me go and let me work out the following week I dont want to screw them I only want to help them with end of month transfer all my stuff over and start my new carrier.
so now you understand why I was waiting to jump up and down I didnt want to get my hopes up but now I can yell to the world YIPPPEEEEE

I leave you know with Michael catching at little league he loves this position he is in every play and thinks its great. and I finally finished the back of rays sweater that I spun and am knitting. This is the sweater if it comes out good I will be entering in the local fairs just to see what happens. I'll be back soon wish me luck telling the boss tomorrow. :-)

2008-05-19T21:56:00.001-04:00

I DID IT!!!!

I passed the last test for my dream job last Friday now I just have to wait for a phone call and find out if I actually get the job.

I dont have time to really post tonight but I had to tell you. I'll be back tomorrow I hope with more of an update.

2008-05-12T05:24:00.002-04:00

my boys took me to the seadogs yesterday and they got to go down on the field and play game they won $25 bucks towards groceries it was funny. I tried to put it on youtube but its not as clear as it was on my camera mike is in red and ray in blue

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6F9EBzHi1A

I cant figure out how to put it into a box for you sorry.

here is a couple of other pictures . I had a great day and I hope you did too.

Not good news.

2008-05-06T09:27:00.000-04:00

This is just a quick update to let you know how shitty things are going. I have been really excited about this new job I have been interviewing for and now do to health reasons I may not be able to take it.
I spent all day yesterday in the ER thinking I had kidney stones to go along with the gallstones I had removed just to find out its my crohns and I have 4 inches or so that is almost completely blocked. I have been going thru a straw and its all starting to back up behind the shrunk part. I hurt really bad. I had left work yesterday to go to the ER and I came in today just so I wont be out of time, I waited until I got here to take my pain killers I didn’t think I would make it until they kicked in. I have 5 different scripts I hate taking shit. I now have to call the dr today at noon he wants to see the cat scan and determine if he wants to do surgery or what which mean a shit bag and no new job.
Why just when things are going ok does this always happen to me.
If you pray say some for me ok.

Ok a lighter note Michael tested last night for his next he is such a sweet kid he didn’t know I was sick until grammy dropped me off I couldn’t drive so my daughter gave me a ride I left my truck at work. He said mom you don’t have to stay for my test its ok you can go home I will still do good. I was all like nope I want to be here for you. Do you think my daughter called after she dropped me off at the ER door and was gone haven’t heard from her since.

That is all my exciting news.

Later

2008-04-20T21:03:00.006-04:00

the week from HE double LL busy

ok lets go over my week. Last weekend I went to my friend Jenny's to hang out knit and spin and the boys went fishing. They stopped over on their way home to visit and see the new lambs.
Sunday we went to church and cleaned the yard.

On Monday night we had tae kwon do. here is Michael doing his form. the actual testing for belts is in a couple of weeks but he had the kids show how much of their forms they already know. Mike just about nailed his form.

Tuesday we went to little league to find out what team Mike are on.

Wednesday back to tae kwon do.

Thursday we played baseball with the cub scouts it was so nice out we couldnt resist being outside.

Friday Mike didnt have school and I snuck out of work early and we went to the orthodontist for his first of many appointments, on the 28th he gets bands on, March first he gets the appliance and the 8th he gets his full braces. its funny how early they want to do them now but the theory is if they can widen his jaw now it will save him alot more work later. we then went to Shogun for dinner its a Japanese rest. that they cook the food on the griddle right in front of you Mike loved it my wallet didnt.

on Saturday we went to a small sheep and wool festival in Denmark they had a cool damn there and the boys were wishing they had brought their fishing poles. Next time I drag Ray someplace he said he wont forget it. LOL

On Sunday we drove down to Mass to see Ray's dad and grandma we didnt make it down for Easter his dad was at seaand we wanted to go when he was in town. here is a picture of Grandma with Mike and Ray. she is the nicest lady and made me cry. She told me that this painting of the girl praying she was giving to me the next time we go down. She wants her friend to take some pictures of it first. I have loved this painting since the first time I ever went to mass with Ray when we were still dating. She painted it in 1974. and she is still painting and doing different types of art now in her 80's. What an incredible lady.

that is my week in review. this week should be much slower no tae kwon do or scouts since its school vacation I might actually get some house work done this week. ( I hope)

2008-04-19T08:13:00.001-04:00

I have not disappeared again it has been a crazy week with little league, tae kwon do, scouts,dentist and work. today we are going to clean a park with the scout (maybe) I dont feel like it and then go to the Denmark sheep fest. I am dragging Ray and Mike with me. Tomorrow we have to drive to mass to see his dad we never made it down for Easter so we have to go visit. I promiss I will have lots of pictures and updates soon.

I love my kids

2008-04-07T20:28:00.004-04:00

I have to keep saying it over and over sometimes. especially after the last week I have had. ok remember I told you I bought a dishwasher I was soooo excited. I called the guys to install it last Saturday, called again Monday to see if they got the message, talked to them again on Wednesday am to confirm. I left work Wednesday went for my Remicade treatment and then came home to wait for them. They show up right on time and take a few measurements and say "so when did you want to do this?" WHAT today thats why I called 3 times and took the afternoon off. "well we dont have the right van can we do it one day next week" NOOOO I took the day off for this end of story. I swear they must have decided on the way over I dont feel like doing this today lets put her off. I pretty much told them either today or Saturday or I will do it myself, little did I know that I would end up doing it at the time.
Because Friday was HELL. I went to work and got a call at 8:30 Mike was having a bad one at daycare. he hit a girl and swung a chair at someone. Great just what I need. So I leave work and go get him, I had to go back and do payroll for the day so I had him sit in the truck and think about what he did and write it down. I was so upset. I called the dr and said what is going on he is adhd and his meds over the last year have been great like so good he caught up with his class in all subject needs no outside assistance or anything but the last couple of weeks he had been out of control. we started talking time lines and what has been going on and decided that he is having some type of anxiety thing because he started having trouble at school and getting bad emails on the 13th and I went into the hospital on the 10th. I disrupted his routine and he was worried about me the stress has kinda fucked with him. So today I called the school and talked to the councelor she is going to meet with him a few times over the next couple of weeks and see if he will open up to her. I hope so he was doing so good I hate to see him stressed and sad/mad/worried about everything. He is young and took the stress out on his friends. So we hope thats all it is.
Well after I did payroll I took him home, I did make him go to my boss's office and tell my boss I'm sorry I was bad and my mom has to take me home. My jerk boss was actually cool and said buddy this cant happen again ok try really hard to be good at school. I'm so glad he didnt say something stupid and mean. When we got home I took out the tools and decided fuck it and installed the dishwasher I had just about everything done by the time Ray and my stepdad got there around supper time they just had to actually hook the power up, I had run the wires but not hooked them up, cut the wood for the shelf I didnt have a saw and put the T fitting in the water, I wasnt strong enough and now we have a dishwasher my mom was all like you go girl LOL.

Saturday we got our new mattress delivered I love we will be there around noon and they show up at 4. but we got it and even on the day they said. then we went to see Kats parents mom had made Ray some fudge and raison bread I love them they are great to us. Then we went to church for the roast beef dinner they have the first Saturday of every month.

Saturday night we watched Chris Rock I think I love my wife this is a really stupid movie but a must watch for anyone that has been married over 5 years. Laugh Ray and I laughed out loud for most of the movie. I love when she said my face hurts when he went to kiss her while she was reading in bed, that killed me I thought I was going to pee my pants.

Sunday I didnt go to church figured ah heck I went last night and saw everyone and the new bed felt good.
Sunday night we had meme over for dinner her 79th Birthday is on Tuesday. I made her a shawl and had Michael model it for me outside he was not happy about it at all ( he got his hair cut Saturday also he said it was cold out didnt want to model). I wanted to catch the cables and details of this thing I started it on Thanksgiving day and got it done last week. Kat this is the one I was working on at your house. I got it done just in time. Meme looks so thrilled doesnt she. She said she liked it, we'll see if she ever wears it again. It was my first adventure in cables

So that is all my news for the last week. I did go to tae kwon do tonight for the first time since I had surgery so I'm pooped and going to read a book in bed.

oh hell I almost forgot I have some good news, my daughter went for a drug test today for a JOB can you believe it at that hated W*lm*rt but hey its her first job beside the daycare. I just hope she finishes school thats all I ask get a diploma

what a weekend

2008-03-31T19:07:00.004-04:00

What a weekend it was up, down and crazzzyyy. Friday night after work I snuck out 15 minutes early we went and set up the pinewood derby track at church. After we were done I told Ray I wanted to run down and say happy birthday to one of my best friends mary lou. As I was sitting at the bar having an adult cocktail with her my ex husband walked in this is the man that ruined 5 years of my life. he was mentally, physically and emotionally abusive. He destroyed my dreams of being a cop by getting my self esteam so low I had a hard time picking my head up without crying if it wasnt for Kat and Lou I wouldnt have gotten through it. He beat his next girlfriend and high tailed it back to NY that was 9 years ago last month. I then picked myself up and met Ray a year later. Now I did see him every year at a local fair he came to work and that was enough for me so you can see why it was such a shock to see him out. Lou was just as shocked he had a pocket full of cash and was hammered (nothing new) he came in and said Shelly Belly, Lou Lou I'm back. I wanted to puke. He went to the other end of the bar and was reminising, he is working for an old friend from Maine building houses so he says, I couldnt take it I gave Lou a hug and said I'm sorry I have to go. She understood, on the way home I called Kat and vented everything to her Thanks Kat.

I did tell Ray because we are now really locking up the house at night my ex is the type to get shitfaced enough to show up and just walk in. Ray is cool he said if he comes on the deck I'll tell him to leave or I'm calling the cops if he steps foot in this house I will shoot him. I told him with a hug not if I do first. I so love Ray, that ended Friday.

Saturday morning we got up bright and early and went to the pinewood derby.

then we went and bought guess what we bought I'm sooo excited a dishwasher. I hate doing dishes and have never every owned a dishwasher. I called today and we should be having it hooked up on Wednesday afternoon I'm getting out of work early to have my remicade treatment and that tires me out so I had the guys come that afternoon not like I'm going to help I'm just going to watch anyways.

after we picked the washer up we came home and my mom stopped by. Her and I went to Bobs to put a deposit on the couch we wont pick it up for awhile but we put a deposit on it. While there I went to the bargain basement and got a new desk it taller but smaller than our old desk I liked it and it was cheap all the scratches are hidden by the computer stuff.

Sunday morning we went to church to thank everyone for allowing us to hold the derby there, then we went grocery shopping and when we got home we flipped the living room completely around we had to so we could set the desk up. we would have had to anyways for the new couch but its done now we we soo tired I was sitting on the floor taking a break and the phone rang. yippeee it was the job I have been waiting to find out about I am on to the next faze of the process and if I pass this and one more test I have the job. I did find out it going to be a huge pay CUT yeah like 5 an hour cut but the benefits are better in the long run, and the retirement is better so we will have some decisions to make when the time comes but for now yippppeee.

Today at work we walked in to no heat again. Last week it was we were out of oil at least this week it was the furnice and someone came right out but you can see why that would be fustrating to work there.

Ok Mike is in bed, Ray is at tae kwon do and I'm going to watch tutors and knit. Later. I should have time to come back Wednesday while they are putting in my dishwasher. :-)

2008-03-26T17:24:00.002-04:00

well let me just say being back to work sucks big time. I was soo tired after 10.5 hours monday and 9.5 yesterday I came home crabby like really crabby I was snapping at everyone. I started supper and went to fold laundry, nice warm towels, well I hugged one of those nice warm towels and out I went. Ray said he came in to ask me if I was eating and I was sound asleep so he just left me until he came to bed and told me to get under the covers.
Today was a good day I had another job interview and it was another panel interview and I think I did much much better I dont know why but I felt more comfortable today than I did at the one last week. They said I would find out next week if I'm going on to the next stage. Thats cool whatever, there was another person or kid waiting with me he told me his life story just got out of college well dropped out never had a full time job etc.............. he was quite interesting he said he hadnt had a cigarette all morning so they wouldnt smell it I'm like dude what if you get the job or they ask you on the poly what are you going to do then. this is the type of job you dont lie no matter what, dont hide who you are lay it all out and you will do much better but whatever good luck to him.
ok I need to go start supper the boys are running down to weigh Michaels pinewood derby car before going to tae kwon do I might get to see them for a minute in between.

Later

2008-03-23T16:07:00.003-04:00

happy easter

we had a great day we got up had a big breakfast. Michael went around the house finding all his presents the easter bunny left one with each egg. Notice in the picture no chocolate. meme always gives us sweet stuff so the easter bunny doesnt bring it to our house. then we went to church it was a full house as it is every holiday. then we stopped by my moms to say hi and kill some time we had to be at meme's at 1 and then we went to meme's and met my dad there and had dinner now we are stuffed and ready for naps. I'll be really ready tomorrow night my first day back to work cross you fingers for me not to fall asleep at my dest :)

talk at ya soon

2008-03-21T11:27:00.002-04:00

wow am I glad I didnt try to go back to work today. I did get the ok to go back Monday but let me tell you about this morning. Ray got up went to work, Mike has the day off teachers workshop or something. So I get up around 8 and go pee and the floor is wet mmm well Ray did take a shower this morning but I hear water running I look sink is off check shower off check so I kneel down and look in the hole that goes into the closet where the hot water tank is and holy shit water everywheres. now remember we live in a trailer and the hot water tank is in the back of the spare room closet behind a false wall, So I run to the spare room and open the door, we keep it closed since we dont use it and got hit with a wall of steam damn everything is dripping like a sauna. I holler to michael get me the phone and get in here. I open the window and start handing Mike cloths from the closet to get out, everything is damp and I called Ray in full panic mode thinking the tank blew up. once I get into the closet I dont know how to shut the water off I know the main shut off is outside behind a pile of snow under the house. I hopped in the truck and went to the main park office and begged a park maint guy to come over he said only if you breathe first and stop panicking it cant be that bad. So he came over and shut the valve off inside by the tank. then ray came home and my stepdad came over, I called the calvery thinking the worse. we figure out its a fitting and a pipe thats the good news but we dont know what we are doing so we decided to call a plumber instead of screwing with it, the income tax money we planned on using for doors and a lawnmower are still in the bank. I took us 10 calls before we found someone that would even look at a mobile home the pipes are plastic so nobody wants to touch them. The guys that came over were great it took them half and hour and one length of pipe a couple of fitting and $85 dollars later we now have hot water that is not all over my floor. Ray used the wetvac and cleaned the mess before going back to work. Now that everyone is gone I can finally sit down and breath I feel like its 5pm already I am burnt out so I'm going to rest being back to work next week is going to be tough.
tonight we are going to measure the sofa I liked and go to eat that should be fun and tomorrow I plan on going to visit the girls at the portland fiber gallery I need to visit and get out so that is my plan oh we have to color eggs and do the easter thing too I need to remember that or Mike will be upset. ok later

2008-03-20T10:30:00.003-04:00

ok what a morning already. I went for an interview at my dream job this morning I really hate interviews I get so nervous I sweat and ramble on and on. It was a tough one too I think the hardest question was have you ever protected yourself in selfdefense. and the answer is Yes against my ex husband I hope that doesnt hurt me because another question was if you took these three calls what order would you dispatch them in and one was a domestic violence call vs a cut finger vs a car accident. it brings alot of emotion and passion from me and I ramble. shit I hope I didnt fuck this up. hey I was honest about the last time I smoked dope or done drugs I should get some brownie points for that. oh well I have one more interview next week maybe that will be better its hard to practice because you dont get the nerves practicing as you do when there.

the doc did say I have a rib out of place last night he couldnt get it back in so I have to go see someone else on friday and hopefully back to work on monday. I miss working.
but I'm off to knit later.

2008-03-19T07:59:00.004-04:00

well not much going on yesterday and I dont have anything planned for today.
Yesterday Jamie and I ran some errands it was nice spending time with her carting me around.
one of the things we did is go couch shopping when we get that tax refund we are going to do what the government wants spend it the couch I liked was at bobs in south portland what do you think. COUCH we might have to take out one of the cup holders otherwise it will be to long for the wall we are going back up on Saturday to measure it but so far this is the winning couch.
Then we called my meme and went to lunch at Applebees with her she wanted to spend some time with me while I was out of work so we went and picked her up. Also she paid so why not go get her and listen to her crab for a little while.
Another thing we looked at was tv's ours has a line on going through it and the volume goes up and down all by itself. What is it with tv's I have one that is 20 years old that still works good its small so its in the game room for the playstation and this one is 7 years old and its junk. we looked at bestbuy at a 32" I'm still not convinced though it doesnt look right because its a rectangle not a square. I have a beautiful tv stand so we cant go any bigger because we would need a new stand and thats not going to happen but looking at the store I cant figure out if I like it or not. Yes I am also working on convincing meme to get us a tv it will take some work but we'll keep trying.
and the last thing we looked at was a dishwasher I have never owned one and this will be the year I will have a dishwasher. the sucky part is it has to be only 18" we have absolutely no way to fit a full size dishwasher into our kitchen so we stopped at Vics on the way to pick up Mike at school. They keep one in stock at all times because alot of the elderly housing in the area uses them so they keep one in the werehouse just in case.
the funny thing is I'm still on painkillers (reason Jamie is driving ) thats the only reason I made it through the day the only thing is they make me sweat alot. I am sooo hot all the time meme was giving me hell for not wearing my jacket but man I was sticky.
Today I am Not doing anything or going anywheres unless Doc calls I'm still trying to get in to have him look at my shoulder. I feel like I have had a rib out of place since my surgery, he tryed to fix it before I left the hospital but its still really sore I cant take a deep breath and yawning forget it I want to die. lets say I'm hoping thats all it is. his office called yesterday but he was out delivering a baby so she said she would call me when she had an opening. we are having Rays buddy Tim over for dinner his birthday is sometime in the next week watch that is when the doc will call and Ray will have to drive me sorry Tim no choice on this one but isnt that the way things usually work.
****update**** the docs office just called @10am and they had a cancellation at you guessed it 5pm now this is the doc that is always running late so I will call @ 4:30 and see how far behind he is before driving all the way there. I did call Ray and tell him he should just take Tim out to dinner without me. Jamie will bring me to see Doc and maybe we will stop for burgers or something on the way home if its not midnight. ****

ok I'm going to work on my knitting with sara in my lap and maybe nap see ya later.

breakfast

2008-03-17T08:58:00.004-04:00

mmmm look what I'm having for breakfast.

Peanut butter egg mmmm Kat they are sooooo good.

for those that dont know Kat and I have been best friends since like forever well the last couple of years my DH and I have gone to her parents house every snowstorm to shovel them out. We dont ask for money but mom pays us in food glorious food. So this weekend when Ray went down he picked up a batch of peanut butter eggs mmmm and a box of peanut butter fudge his favorite and some muffins for breakfast since she knows I'm not feeling to good to be cooking Thanks mom check this out.

onto spinning and knitting news. the last few months I have been spinning up a storm See. There are 8 balls there with a little over 200 yards in each I am planning on making this Gansey sweater for Ray. I told him the only catch was if it came out good and I'm really hoping it does I want to enter it in the fairs this fall. He was ok with that so after I finish my grandmothers cape which I'm sure she will hate that is my next project.

oh and I have to thank Jeannie. I had bought the pattern online and realized I didnt have the glossary for interweave to go with it. So I put out a call on knittyboard looking for the 2004 fall interweave book and she had it. I got it last week and in return send her a half pound of salt water taffe from dickinsons candy shop of course I had to buy some for myself too. I got it sent out to her on Friday after I got out of the hospital. I'm just glad Ray and Mike didnt eat it all on me.

Well my dad is surposed to take me out for breakfast I hope soon I'm starved not that the eggs werent filling. talk to you later

2008-03-16T14:49:00.007-04:00

hee hee want to see my belly the yellow arrows are pointing to the holes the put in me to get my gallbadder out what pretty colors they are now. the one on the far left (my right) had the drain in it until Wednesday man that hurt like hell when he took it out.

on a lighter note a few years ago I was making homemade night lights out of mason jars I did a few craft fairs and stuff with them. DH and I were talking and decided to sell what I have left on ebay its my first time selling anything on here so wish me luck. I only put three up to start with I know I probably wont get what I put into them but its better than then the nothing I am getting with them sitting on a shelf out back oh here is a link to one of them nightlight

today we all got up and went to church for palm Sunday Michael was acolyte he is sooo cute see

his hair looks messy but he is growing it out again and wants it all brushed forward what a goober but it wasnt worth fighting over.

I'm going to lay down now I feel good one minute and shitty the next so late.
I'm out of work for the week and guarenteed to be bored so you might see me around quite a bit playing catch up for not posting for so long

2008-03-14T23:06:00.002-04:00

I think I'm gonna try this blogging thing again. I spent last week in the hospital after getting my gallbladder out on Monday and it got me thinking I really, really want to re-connect with some of my old friends. Another friend is moving away and its really depressing me so now I'm on the hunt for the friends I had growing up. I'm courious what are you up to, are you ok, do you have a family, am I the only one stuck in Maine anymore. I am happily married and love my life but I often wonder what happened to the people I used to hang around with. The only one I really have contact with is Kat we have never not been friends but where did everyone else go?

Oh the place that was hosting my background is gone now I need to find a new one I love fairies, pixies, stuff like that I would really like to find something to do with knitting if you have any ideas send them my way.

2007-11-27T19:44:00.000-05:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun quizzes for blog & myspace

2007-10-25T06:13:00.000-04:00

here a little hint on why I have been away and sooo busy. I still pop around and read everyone but Michael has been playing football 3 days a week and tae kwon do 2 then cub scouts and games and the merry go round never stops. then we had his birthday at a rock gym the kids loved that. I'll be back later this week with a real post. I miss everyone
Later

2007-07-10T11:54:00.000-04:00

ok I'm back I uploaded a bunch of pictures on my lunch break but didnt have time to tell you about them. We went camping in Jackman Maine last week and had a blast Sara really enjoyed the canoe more than the ride up she gets wicked car sick even with dramamene (sp)

the next picture is of Mr. Moose we got up at 5am to paddle across Long lake to take pictures of this guy we got within 20 yards of him it was cool. The scary part was when we were driving home my dad called and said we didnt need to drive 4 hours to see moose he hit one with his truck on rt 1 in Saco that morning on the way to work he wasnt hurt but his truck was he was really just shook up the moose walked away.

then we have a picture of my boys and Sara in our canoe I was in our buddy Mark's boat no paddling I wasnt complaining its hard to see Sara, she is right next to ray looking at the fish he is realing in for her to play with

ok this picture is a couple of weeks old we went down to see Rays best friend Billy in Mass he took us out striper fishing this was my big striper at about 35 lbs we had a great time I forgot my rain gear so I have Billy's on I look like a big pumpkin, but I was dry.

This last picture is of my two babies J. just turned 17 this was at her birthday bar-b-que we have every year for her she is to old for a party you know. J and Michael are spending alot of time together now Jamie just got a job at Michaels daycare she is so excited she got her first pay check last week and opened a bank account. This job is perfect for her the hours are 11:30 to 5:30 and the pay is excellent.

2007-06-22T07:03:00.000-04:00

Kat has tagged me a rockin girl blogger thats cool thanks Kat.

I have to tag 5 people mmm lets see Kat is already tagged Belle got tagged by Kat. Isabelle has the most adorable baby so she rocks, coleen sends me knitting books that really rock, Kari is really cool so tag to her, and Sheri my fellow mainer. and Lana for who knits some really rockin stuff while taking care of her girls

If you’ve been tagged, just grab the Rockin’ Girl Bloggers badge and tag five more powerful woman bloggers you know. Pay it forward and the phenomenon will keep on going and going. If you’re either a guy or your name isn’t on this list, it doesn’t mean you can’t participate. Just grab the badge and tell a girl blogger out there that she rocks!

SAD DAYS

2007-06-21T14:31:00.000-04:00

Well its been a rough couple of days. Last night my son lost his pet guinea pig Jesse.
she has been a cool pet, she was almost 5. Michael is heartbroken, he takes death really hard after losing both grandpas last summer. If someone in a movie dies he cries just like his mommy.
Jesse has been sick the last couple of days she wouldn't eat or drink. So we knew it was coming yesterday I came home from work and she was seizing by the time he got home from tae kwon do she was gone. We had a little funeral outside for her he said a prayer gave her a kiss and put her in the hole Ray had dug. then he said dad I need a minute to say another prayer, he kneeled down and was quiet for a few minutes then said "amen" and got up he was crying so hard. Poor little guy, when I went to bed I stopped to check on him and he was still making little sobbing noises in his sleep. It was so sad.
Today my mom were emailing back and forth and she asked how Mike was doing so I called daycare to check. They said he was moping around listening to his mp3 player on the couch with a book, and every once in awhile they were seeing him all teary.
So I emailed my mom back and told her, so decided to surprise him and pick him up and take him to her work for a little while then to the beach when she got out.
Tomorrow I took the day off to reg the new/used vehicle we got did I tell you we got a new/used vehicle well yeah we did we traded rays truck in after what happened to the fuel he figured something would happen to the motor sooner than later so we traded it in for trailblazer its great it has three rows of seats and a dvd player.
Anyways I have tomorrow off so I'm going to keep him around with me and just do some cleaning and some fun stuff in the afternoon if it doesnt rain.

Thats my news this week.
Saturday we are having a birthday party for my little girl she turned 17 yesterday she is now the same age I was when I had her how scary is that.
I'll update you on that after the party.
Later

2007-06-08T06:03:00.000-04:00

Bet you didn't think I would be back did ya. mmm fooled you. I have been trying to keep up with everyone blogs but life has been absolutely crazy in every way.
lets have a brief recap.
1st my darling daughter fell and broke her foot at her house and I was made to feel like the bad person she played her dad and I against each other really hard. I'm tired of her making me sad and have come to the conclusion I will not let her do this to me any more its not worth it.
2nd my husband decided to empty the gas out of the boat and put it in his truck to save a couple of bucks and it cost us over $900 to get the entire fuel system redone and cleaned the gas was old wouldnt burn and was mostly water.
Then there is work, t-ball tae kwon do and a new puppy. I did Finally get my sweater done when I pick up some batteries for the camera I will take some pictures I love it sooo much my friend Pam put it together for me and put the zipper in. I cant thank her enough I might try to find her some nice yarn at the fiber frolic Saturday. I'm going up with some friends.

oh and to top the month absence I have had a heck of a time with my joints just before my remicade treatments I would be really really sore like cant walk or get up in the morning sore.Well I broke down and called the doc and guess what I have arthritis they don't know if is psoratic or rheumatoid yet because they are all in the same family with my crohns and psoriasis. we have to kind of wait and see I just had a treatment this Wed and am starting to feel a little better he want to see what is going to happen just before my next treatment and we might have to move them back from 8 weeks to 7 if the last week is the only time its bothering me.

on a good note the puppy is doing great I run home every day at lunch to let her out and if I cant make it my dad or meme goes over, she might pee in her cage on a long day but other than that no accidents she is super smart we really enjoy her.
So now I leave you with a couple of pictures .
Michael was a hit at the ice cream social for cub scouts with his game boy thing wait its not a game boy I stand corrected its a ds light.

later I will try not to be soo long between post.

2007-05-07T05:27:00.000-04:00

I dont really have time to post today @ work but I uploaded these pictures this morning of Sara and Michael.
I have alot to tell you but I'll have to do it later.

Shell

2007-04-23T05:43:00.000-04:00

First I would like to introduce you to the newest member of the family Sara she was born March 13 we cant pick up up until May 5th thats when she will be old enough but last Friday Night we went and picked her out. There were three left to chose from and Michael looked at all 3 and picked this one and when we asked him are you sure you dont want to look at the other two some more he was like nope this is her she is the one we want. she has a lightning bolt on the her other side you cant see in the photo so at first he wanted to call her lightning and we said no thats not a girls name so on the way home he said Sara I want to name her Sara I asked him why and he told me he had a friend named Sara and he liked the name so Sara it is.

On Saturday we drove to Mass to visit with Rays family we spent the day with his grandma, sister and stopped to see his buddy Billy I took a couple of pictures there one is of Mike with Rays sister everyone asks us where does he get the blond hair and blue eyes well he looks exactly like his aunt if Ray and I werent around you would swear it was her son.

The next couple of pictures were on Sunday, Kats sister was up from Florida for a week and being the first nice day we've had we stopped at their mom and dads to say hello. Michael loved playing with his "cousins" we call them that because they are that close to us. Kat, her family and I are more like a family than most family's are I love them like my own. And as we have always said blood doesnt matter whats in the heart does.
Before we stopped there we had church this week Michael lit the candles again. he looks like such a little man and he is sooo proud when he does this I just have to take a picture every time I know most of the other parents dont but I just cant help it.

So now we have the countdown to picking up Sara on the fridge and cant wait for her.
The other puppy we were looking at didnt work out the people never got back to me and kept me hanging and I'm glad now they did because we found the "one"

Talk to you later in the week its so nice out I'm going to sit on the deck in shorts and enjoy it Imagine just last week we were shoveling.

water water everywhere

2007-04-16T20:06:00.000-04:00

Normally I love living in the northeast but today I could live without this weather it has been poring for two days with no end in site. check out these pictures this is the parking lot where I work. Yeah I'm the last one to leave and the next is at the water just at the edge of the parking lot I figure it will be over by tomorrow. they say several houses in my town will be in the ocean by morning. That is normally a 3-4 foot brook nice isnt it.

on other news we are looking for a puppy preferable a beagle to do outdoor stuff with us I might have found one if she is still available Friday we asked if we could meet her. Want to see, I'll show you but I get first dibs ok. cross your fingers I think she would be a perfect fit to our family. her name is starlight

I'll let you know how it goes I better shut the computer off before the power goes out and I mess it up.

Later

2007-04-12T10:15:00.000-04:00

I know I have sooo much to tell you I will come back later and do that but for right now go see my Best Friend Kat she has a great post about our friendship and all we have endured over the years. She made me cry I miss her sooooo much. I don't want to move to Florida to many people not enough deer and its to cold in Maine for her. When she moved away and every time we leave each other it hurts like hell. I was so worried because so many friendships end when one moves away but ours has just changed and strengthened not ended, She is always there when I call no matter what and If the stubborn old fool would call more when she was having a problem I would be here to listen and she knows it.

2007-03-27T06:11:00.000-04:00

Hello hello,
the cold is much better thank you.
this last week has been quite interesting. I did complain about my co worker and the HR person did come up from Mass and talk to him. Let me just say that it has been really quite in this room since then.
Michael is doing alot better the doc switched him to an adhd patch and as far as we can see its working, but of course his teacher is out this week at a funeral so we dont have her imput on it.
Michael also did really good at his tae kwon do testing he got two more stripes towards his blue belt, and did great on his form in front of everyone.
There are a couple of pictures below. Also there is a picture of a scarf I just finished I'm really proud of this one I spun it and knit it and it took forever but it came out great.
On other knitting news I made a great trade on Knitty. There is a book I've wanted forever and its now out of print, I met someone on there that had it so I bought her this new book she wanted in exchange for the book I wanted. I cant wait to get it.
What else is going on mmmm nothing really Michael has choir tonight and this weekend looks kinda mello. Next couple will be crazy we are driving to Mass the day before Easter to visit the family.
I'll do another post when I actually do something interesting.

oh I almost forgot I started on the most expensive sweater I'll ever own and I hope I have enough yarn, I have had it for over a year and have been scared to start in case I mess up the other night I finally said ok I'm ready. So wish me luck I'll keep you posted on the progress. I just started the back Sunday night.

2007-03-20T13:22:00.000-04:00

My cold has officially won. I have lost my voice almost completely I squeak and when I try more than a few words then I start coughing so hard I can't breath. Funny thing is the rest of me feels fine just everything from the shoulders up is screwed. Michael was up all night with me coughing I wonder how he is doing today he went to school I thought they would call today for sure but they didn't so hopefully he is OK. We go to the doctors tomorrow at 3pm to get checked out again. Ray came home yesterday cold and feverish so he might come with us tomorrow. hopefully we are all better for the weekend.
I'm just glad I can type.

Kat quit laughing me NOT talking is NOT that funny.

hey everyone go congratulate Isabel and Ryan on there new baby boy David. He is a real cutie.

2007-03-19T13:24:00.000-04:00

Well this is starting off to be another fine week, I’ve been sick as hell all weekend, coughing, sore throat the works. Yesterday I noticed my glands in my neck were swollen and the pain was traveling up to my ear.
But the pig head that I am decided to go to work today since I input all of our divisions timecards for payroll on Mondays. And wouldn’t you have it my wonderful co partner had to start in right away. It was nice Friday after the shit on Thursday he didn’t speak to me at all on Friday. Well this morning I took a call for him and the tec. asked how I was feeling because I didn’t sound to good. I told him I have a cold but I’m here so I transfer to call to my co-worker and after he answers he said “yeah she’s always sick with something” I lost it I told him that was enough I’m putting an end to this I’m tired of all the comments it is not needed. So next I called our HR guy and made a complaint he is coming up from Mass to speak to him. I told him I feel bad but I’ve had enough so he asked why haven’t you talked to *** my direct boss, well last year when this same stuff was happening I did and for my review I was told I need to try and get along with the person better. Me had to try not him like it was my fault.
He must know something is up because he hasn’t spoken to me since doesn’t break my heart.
So after this happens I called my doctor and finally some luck he had a cancellation in 30 minutes could I make it. You bet your ass I drove like hell to get there for the time they said then had to wait another 20 min to get seen. He said I didn’t have strep I gagged on the stick, but my glands were really swollen in my throat no shit they hurt like hell. He thinks its something bacterial so he gave me some antibiotics and some cough syrup and told me to take the day off and sleep but I didn’t I came back to work. Hey don’t want to fan the flames here and make them right, until this is over I will be here no matter what if I can help it. I have to see him again on Wednesday with Mike to check how his meds are doing and he is going to check my glands again then.

So how is that for a Monday.

Edit @ 3:30: like I said its a Monday I just got a call from Mike's principal apparently this med is not going to work from him he is doing good with it except for one not so minor problem when you correct him now he gets very VERY angry. I guess today he got mad and crawled under his desk and the teacher had to get the principal to get him out and have a talk with him she said this is not our sweet little michael so tomorrow and wednesday we are not going to give him any meds at all until we get to see the doc in the afternoon. I would rather have him not pay attention then to get angry like that.
My day cannot get any better can it.

2007-03-15T11:30:00.000-04:00

I know I haven’t posted in awhile but nothing really has been going on. Same old family stuff cub scouts, tae kwon do, junior choir, knitting and spinning same old, same old. We did get a new bed with our income taxes but that isnt to exciting.
I have a bunch of pictures to download off my camera and then put up but that’s for another day.
Today I have a couple of vents I realllly need to get off my chest.

First is my daughter what is it with teenagers that makes them such asses. Last week we heard we would be getting the money that my papa left the grand kids and great-grandkids, ok that’s great we weren’t thinking it was ever going to happen so of course last week I bought my daughter a laptop. She said her dad was going in half with me and would pay me by next month ok. I bought it believing her. Well I talk to him later in the week and he said I never told her that I told her it would be awhile before I could come up with the money. So that started it, she called me Thursday night and asked if I had my check yet, Nope why “well I need a new phone” ok that is fine, my meme called me later and said the person that was writing the check told her she got a call from my daughters grandmother that she lives with telling her to write the check to her since she raised J. NOT so I called and said to make the check out to J or her dad as she might have a hard time cashing it since she doesn’t have a bank account. Well Saturday we had the pine wood derby to go to with Mike and then were going to drive 2 hours to get new windows for the house. I get a call from Jamie that she got her check and would be over to watch Mike while we drove up after she went and bought a new phone, I’m like ok J. just don’t blow the money ok that is all there is and I asked if her dad was holding it she said very smartly No its my money I can spend it on what I want. I was like ok whatever its not worth fighting over. Ten minutes later I get a call from her dad asking what the F I just said to J. I’m like what are you talking about, now remember I’m at the cub scout thing watching Mike and am now being yelled at. He said listen I don’t appreciate you telling people that mom is a drunk and I’m a burnout. I said what the hell are you talking about then he said well J better get all the money she had in the will. “what will?” he says didn’t you go with your father and meme to read the will last week. I’m like no meme went to do the taxes and that’s it. This is all the money we are getting as far as I know. I get the whole that’s not what I heard routine. Boy is she going to be disappointed when there is nothing left and all she has to remember her papa by is a cell phone. So anyways we get home and wait for her to come watch Mike, she never showed, we drove up to get the windows and hurried back as we were All surposed to go to dinner at my moms and see my aunt that is up from Florida. I kept calling and texting her nothing, I call her dad and says I’ll get her, he never called back not a word so we went to dinner without her. I still haven’t talked to her this week she hasn’t called one. Ray and I were talking I think she is trying to play her dad and me against each other for some reason now that she has everything she wants.

Enough about her my good child is doing good on his new ADHD meds its really made a difference in tae kwon do this week he had testing and got two more stripes towards his blue belt. He didn’t win at the pine wood derby but he had fun.

Now the real rant, I’m at work and I’m ugly. The jerk I sit next to started with one of his I’m funny but only to myself things today. I got a bonus for signing something up its for 25 then after taxes it was $15 whole dollars. So I said jeesh what can I buy for 15 dollars and the jerk says not much you eat 15 dollars an hour don’t you. I’m like WHAT he said I don’t know if I would rather feed you or cloth you, you are eating all day everyday.
I got pissed and just walked away before I cococked him. I have a friggin disease where if I don’t eat small meals all day everything goes thru me and I get sick, I’m over weight so what at least I buy my own food and don’t eat everyones leftovers and complain all day about being hungry until someone else gives him food. I’m so mad I could scream.
About an hour later he came back and said sorry I was making a joke, I didn’t except it I told him I don’t think it was very funny at all. Go away.

So that is my news. Mike isn’t feeling well today I’m really hoping the school does call so I can go home and spend the day with him out of this place its noon now I don’t think its going to happen so I’m stuck here stirring.

Hope you are having a better week than me.

2007-02-20T07:02:00.000-05:00

hello everyone

I had a Great relaxing weekend and man did I need that. I went to Spa this weekend, its really just a bunch of woman getting together at a local hotel to knit, spin, crochet and just shoot the shit. there were a couple of vendors there I did overspend but I had been putting a couple of bucks aside since christmas every week just to go. I met some really nice people I used to get really nervous about going places by myself, a couple of friends showed up for a little bit but for the most part I was alone. Now mind you I am not a shy person but the walking in and setting up by myself has always kinda made me feel weird. I went out for lunch with a girl I had met in the hall but at supper time alot of people were going out before the guest speaker was set to start at 7. Lucky me I am close enough that I drove home ate dinner and debated whether I was going to go back for the guest speaker, I did decide to go back at the last minute then went to see my friend lou and had a drink with her. That was my entire weekend pretty cool. I hadnt used my spinning wheel in awhile after using it all weekend I realized I really miss it. Last night I sat spinning while watching hero's I didnt even notice the time flying by.

While I was spinning Ray and Michael went Ice fishing and snowmobiling all day Saturday they had a blast, we are going to go to NH riding this Saturday as a family then church on Sunday, after church if our income tax comes in we are going to go bed shopping we soo need a new bed you can only flip them so many times. Now when the bed is made you can see the dents where we sleep I told Ray we either need to loose weight or get a new bed, and he liked the bed idea. We are also going to get the rest of our house windows with the money we will save money on heat doing that and next year we can use it as another deduction. What ever is left is going onto credit cards so we can work on paying those puppies off. The only reason we dont do that before the windows is I'm tired of watching the heat go out the window and I'm tired of plastic.
I better get back to work boss is being weird this week I think he has pms.

happy V day and Let it snow, snow, snow

2007-02-14T06:03:00.000-05:00

Damn is it snowing out and I'm stuck at work, to top it off a bunch of people called in today and I'm by myself taking all my boss's shit I think its because I'm the only one here.

the rest of the week has been ok. Michael had his blue/gold banquet last Saturday Night, my mom and stepdad came with us it was cute. Michael earned a bunch of stuff he was excited. Sunday he got to do the candle again at church he loves doing that even if they do pair him up with an older child.

Tuesday we took Michael to the doc we had him tested at school for add/adhd the test showed he was indead in the adhd catigory, so yesterday we went to the doctor and had a long talk with him. He got some pills to take once a day in the morning. We will see how it goes, he is not an extreme case but he is struggling with his focussing. But I was correct about his iq its on the high end if he can settle down I think he will be fine.

I leave you with a couple of pictures from this weekend.
Drive Safe if you are getting all the storms we are.

2007-02-08T05:51:00.000-05:00

I'm sooo sorry its been so long since I've posted.
I have a few updates for you.
First let me say it was GREAT having Kat here for a week. I loved it, I have so missed having a friend to just ride around and shoot the shit with. I know she was cold but I so wish she could come back to stay. I'm being gready just slap me ok.
We went snowtubing last Saturday the kids had a blast its funny we went from 9-12 and by 11:30 we were all tired and ready to go.
Sunday I went to the baby shower at my friends they are the ones I made all the presents for and they really liked what I made. phew I'm glad. here is a picture of the happy couple opening my box.

Next is a picture of a scarf I spun and knitted for a girl that goes to light therapy with me she liked mine that I made last year. I almost forgot to take a picture and happened to have my camera in my purse so I snapped a picture on the seat of my truck.

this last picture is of poofur he is a black angoria bunny we are buying for Rays mom for valentines day. He is still little and will turn kinda grey but I think he will still be cute. His mom is naming him poofur because she is keeping the poo for her garden and giving me the fur. I like that idea all the benefit and no mess.

Yesterday was just total mess. I got up and went to brush my teeth and guess what no water again. so I wake Ray up and he started the new heater we bought last week when this happened. I went to work but only ended up staying an hour Ray doesnt have any vaca time and I do so I figured It was better for me to use my time instead of him with no pay. So I went home and called my daughter and told her to skip school not that it broke her heart but I had a remicade treatment at one and if the pipes werent unthawed we needed someone to watch the heaters.

they did defrost about 10:30 and we found out why they kept freezing, there is a really small drip at one of the fittings well the drips went down the concrete slab and stopped right on the water pipe and froze it solid. So Ray bought all kinds of insulation to stuff around the pipe and get it off the concrete and tonight my uncle is coming over to help him fix the fitting so it quits leaking.

I did get to go to my remicade treatment at the new cheaper place, what a difference. This place was so nice and friendly I'll be sure to tell all my doctors to send people over here instead.

the next week is going to be really crazy around here even more than normal. Ray is leaving tomorrow for his yearly ice fishing trip with the boys but our buddy mark has to work tomorrow so I'm going to run him to NH after work to meet everyone so they wont have so many trucks there. Then Saturday we have the blue/gold banquet for cub scouts, Sunday Michael is lighting the candles at church again.

Monday and Wednesday is tae kwon do. Monday at 5:30 we are going to do our taxes. Tuesday we have to go see the doc for michael and talk about his add/adhd test, we have a meeting with the school on Thursday morning to discuss more things about Michael.

so that is my week in review maybe you can see why I have a hard time remembering to post but be assured I do come around and read your blogs every couple of days even if I dont have time to comment.

Later

2007-01-30T09:40:00.000-05:00

Week in review and its only Tuesday.

I have been a busy beaver since last Friday let me tell you that.

Ray was going to go ice fishing Saturday but when he went to brush his teeth and there was no water. Michael was actually happy about it the little shit, he was being punished for not behaving at school last week and wasnt going to be allowed to go and now daddy wasnt going so Michael didnt feel so bad even though I did drag him around with me all day running errands. We borrowed a heater from a guy at work and got the pipes unfrozen around 9. Then Mike and I ran around visiting and getting shit stuff done.
Sunday Ray did go ice fishing and took Michael so I had the day off and man did I need it after having him all day saturday. they got home around 1, I made 4 pans of apple, chocolate chip cakes to bring to cubscouts we went to the fire/pd for a visit the pd had eaten almost the entire pan before we even left.

Yesterday was great I only had to work 4 hours then drove to NH to pick up Kat. I found the place 5 minutes before the plane landed it was soooo good to see my best friend again its been way to long. Last time I saw her she had just had surgery and was in ICU this time she was my kat full of piss and vinigar as usual we have so much funny people watching and let me tell you there were some guys at the airport well worth watching. I hope the cold weather doesnt bother her to bad that would suck. The boys have grown soo much I cant wait to see them Saturday we are going snow tubing.

and to make the day end well I stopped and got the mail and had a package from my secret pal now see she made my experience great the package had everything I could want. hand cream and spray which I use alot on my psoriasis, and some great yarn and patterns I'll tell you more tonight when I can get home and take some pictures this stuff is sooo pretty its hard to describe without photos. and listen to this my pal is from Maine how lucky am I. she is Julie from jujuknits
and she has been a great pal I'm hoping she is going to spa next month so I can meet her.
Thanks Julie for making sp9 fun.

unfortunatly today is starting off kind sucky. I woke up feeling crappy but I never call in to work so that wasnt an option. its weird yesterday one of my fingernails almost broke completlely off I discovered I have psoriasis under my nail that sucks by itselft and today my joints HURT I hope I dont end up with psoriatic arthritis (sp) thats all I need but this is making me wonder. I'm hoping its just the cold outside I put my new fingerless mittens on and an extra jacket. My fingers, shoulders, neck and one knee are killing me.

I better get back to work have a great day I'll take pictures of my sp package tonight and probably just tack them onto this post and I'll be sure to get lots of photos of the boys snowtubing on Saturday.
Later.

edited wednesday morning:

I added a picture of the great stuff my secret Pal JUJU sent. it has a felt lined mitten kit that is really cool I had never seen it done that way before and think its something even I can do and a sock kit with simple easy to read instructions. and she got the smell just right with spray and lotion from body shop. I tell you what I have never in my life used as much cream as I have been lately trying to keep my psoriasis moist when it drys out it hurts.

Again thank you Secret Pal and hey let me know where exactly in Windham that new yarn shop is we are going that way Saturday and I want to stop there after snowtubing.

2007-01-26T08:25:00.000-05:00

Sooo KARI from DOGWOOD DREAMS tagged me.

THE RULES: Each player of this game starts with the 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1. I tend to talk really loud and fast when I’m excited, if I have a point to make I will interrupt or do whatever I have to, to get heard.

2. I am a true tom-boy, I wear hats whenever I can, I drove big trucks for 7 years, have always worked construction of some type, I collected match box cars as a kid, I hunt and fish, shoot a bow. And my husband loves all these things about me.

3. I have tons of nice yarn that I am afraid to work with. Why? Cuz I don’t think I am good enough to work with such nice yarn. Kari I stole this one from you I have been sitting on some really expensive yarn for awhile because I’m scared I’ll mess it up.

4. I still tend to add numbers on my fingers when I can

5 I have to have a blanket or sheet over my shoulders when I’m sleeping, my legs, butt, arms everything can be uncovered but if I’m sleeping on my stomach I have to feel something over my shoulders. See I’m weird.

6. I HATE tunnels I go through them when I have to but I have a theory I would rather squish someone falling off a bridge than have a big building land on me. Kat remember the trip down south all them damn tunnels I held my breath through. Now mind you I’m not claustrophobic mri machines and that stuff don’t bother me at all I just don’t want to be squished by a big building.

I tried to tag some folks who hadn’t already been tagged but if I tagged you and you had been I apologize.Sooo I TAG:

KAT
BELLE
ISABEL

I have to get back to work so 3 more friends please fill this out ok and let me know. the boss is walking around.

2007-01-23T17:50:00.000-05:00

look what I did, look what I did.
I finished three more knitting projects they weren't big ones but they are done. I made a bunny and a sweater and a set of booties. This is for the same baby that I made the blanket for I still need to take a picture of that but its at my moms for safe keeping unil the shower on the 4th.
I think I'm going to start a square to get the guage for my expensive sweater for me now. lets see how brave I can be.

2007-01-22T15:07:00.000-05:00

Remicade Rip off.
do you want to know why insurance cost sooo much now in this country I found out why by doing some research. I told my doc how much hospital A was charging so he asked my for an itemized price sheet from them.
they sent it before the insurance discount $12,078.60 with the discount it was about $10,800 the doc called me friday afternoon he called hospital B their price same dosage and everything is about $7000. before discount
I made a few calls myself today to different places the cost at hospital C's iv center right next to my work is aprox $4500. before the insurance discount.

I called A and asked why are they soo much they couldnt give me an answer. I then called my insurance and told them I would be going to got to C from now on to make sure I didnt need to do anything to switch and told them the cost difference for the same med at 3 different places within 20 miles of each other incredible isnt it. They said they are going to look into I doubt they will but I told them.

I started this because I was worried I would run out of insurance in 10 years at that rate every 8 weeks with a 1 mill lifetime max. I'm still amazed. So anyways my doc is going to change my appointment to go over to C and cancell A

on a lighter note Kat is coming I'm so excited I'm picking her up in NH next Monday I' going to take her boys snow tubing where we had went last week I think they will like it if they dont freeze I'm trying to borrow some boots for them so they dont get to cold. I miss them so much her boys are the most polite kids we have been best friends over 3/4 of our lives it sucks she lives so far away now but when we do get to see each other it means so much more now. She is the one true friend I have left and I cant wait to see her cant you tell.

We didnt do anything special at our house this weekend hung out on Saturday, went to church and watched football on Sunday. we missed some of the pats game to watch Rome but it didnt look like we missed much we caught the last 10 minutes just to see them lose. oh well maybe next year.

ok back to work
Later

the shrinking mittens

2007-01-16T22:26:00.000-05:00

I am a slow knitter and was proud of myself to have knitted a pair of mittens for my 6 year old in a week. Last Saturday we went to seacoast snowtubing park and he keeps taking his new mittens off. I tell him put them back on, he gives me the look, all you moms know the look and he'd put them back on.
We get back to the truck and I look at the mittens and tell him I'm sorry honey I didnt think they would do that, I made them with wool and thought they would be warm but now they might fit a 2 year old. all day while we were playing his new mittens were shrinking and shrinking no wonder he kept telling me they felt funny. He is such a good boy I said "Mike why didnt you tell me they were getting smaller" and him being the cutey he is said " I didnt want to make you sad, but dont worry I can give them to my friend his mom is having a baby" isnt he the best kid I swear sometimes he's an angel and other times mmmm you know that he came from the place down below. the day wasnt a total loss we did have alot of fun and I learned to make a little boys mittens out of something other than wool unless you WANT him to felt them for you.

below is a picture of my boys and the incredible shrinking mittens. the orange mitten is the size the grey one started out as, and no the orange one is NOT wool. I hope we get more real snow soon this was all man made we had a couple of inches the other day. the park only had 3 lanes open but usually has 5 I cant wait to go back before the end of the season.

2007-01-15T05:00:00.000-05:00

I was emailed that if I didnt remove the post about what happened in sp I would be banned and that shipping doesnt count toward the $60.
So to clarify what I bought without shipping or the free stuff which was pointed out was free and I guess you cant send free stuff.
candles red one at fair $1.50
colored ones $5.00
hand cream $4.00
home made lamp $15.00 to $20 depending on where the craft fair is being held anyone want a break down on what I spend on materials. and the 2+ hours it takes me to make them let me know.
bear $12.00
syrup $5.00
spindle $5.00
book $13.00 or so it came out to 26 at the store for 3 things. plus tax
fiber $8.00

I get over 60 not including all the free yard I sent. I think I have forfulled my obligation. as far as taking my post down if the person cant thank me on their blog for something I spent my money on which is also part of the agreement than I cant take this down. I dont think my husband will let me do another one anyway, he said I cant do it if its going to make me cry. I have been an angel is sp's in the past I have helped in every way possible and never asked for anything matter of fact I didnt even reveil it was me I dont want or expect much in this just a thank you. I just thought the whole thing was fun. I might like to do another one someday. The hostesses have been absulutly wonderful I appreciate all there hard work. I volunteer at a bunch of other things or I would have for this I just dont have the time to commit to it like these wonderful woman do.

thank you Friends and have a nice day.

here is a picture of the lamps I make I have all kinds of different shades for different seasons it depends on the fair. They are filled with potpurii and have an on/off switch on the cord. we use ours as night lights all over the house the jars dont heat up as the light is above the jar and yes they are all hand painted.

I got tagged

2007-01-12T18:51:00.000-05:00

1. If you had to choose one vice in exclusion of all others what would it be?
tea hot or cold doesnt matter I drink it all day long

2. If you could change one specific thing about the world what would it be? go back to hunting, raising and growing your own food. only buying what you absolutly have to

3. Name the cartoon character you identify with the most.
smurfette I have worked with mostly men for years and live with a couple boys.

4. If you could live one day in your life over again which one would it be?
the day I met my ex husband I would have walked the other way and not wasted 5 years.

5. If you could go back in history and spend a day with one person who would it be? JFK. I have been to the museum and would have loved to have met him.

6. What is the one thing you lost, sold or threw away that you wish you could have back? my matchbox collection I had as a kid, my mom sold them at a yard sale I had over 100 of them.

7. What is your one most important contribution to this world?
medical research I am a walking experiment

8. What is your one hidden talent that nearly no one knows about? I can play clarinet, flute and sax.

9. What is your most cherished possession? my bows if anything ever happened I could feed my family and protect them. I loved competing for years it has been a source of pleasure

10. What one person influenced your life the most when growing up? my music teachers showed me all the different music there was out there. I love broadway musicals now

11. What one word describes you better than any other?
Emotional I care to much about everything and take everything to heart.

Now I shall tag kari, Sheri and lana And anyone else who happens to be reading that thinks this might be a fun thing to do. I want to learn more about everyone :)

Please say you'll play along! And as always, if you do, leave me a comment directing me to your post so that I can come see your answers!

2007-01-10T06:07:00.000-05:00

What is it about Thursdays, I uploaded a picture yesterday and ran out of time to actually write a post to go with it.And today I have time to a post. I hate to say this is mostly going to be a venting post. I hate mean people all over the net I have been reading my friends blogs and getting emails myself personally from people that are just plane asses.
To start with please go give my friend Scotty your support. He and his partner are being bashed in the worst way. I so wish I could go and do something for them the way they are being treated is just so not right.
then I hear about kids being bullied about where they live. So what if your house once had wheels its better than an apartment and what you live in doesn't matter as much as the love and nurturing you have in the home.
Then to top things off I have decided this will be my last Secret Pal. the person that has been spoiling me has been absolutely great. She has stayed in contact and sent great stuff.
the person I was spoiling on the other had has been very petty in my opinion. I sent her 3 packages, the first one had a homemade lamp that I made and sell at fairs, candles I bought at a fair, and some novelty yarn and some yarn I got (gasp) free a the Boston knit out. I new she said she really wasn't into novelty yarn but it was pretty and she said she had been making stuff for some relatives kids and maybe she would like it. The second box was a bear and maple syrup from a Maine Store, the third box I thought would be the best I was really excited about it when I mailed it. she said she had never spun so I sent some rovings, a spindle and a book on learning to spin. Now I find it fun to learn new things apparently she didn't. I get an email from her saying I obviously didn't get to know her because I kept sending her stuff that she didn't use or want. She stated that she knew I got the yarn free in Boston because she looked the yarn up. Yeah it was free and new on the market that's why I sent it to her I would have gladly kept it if I had known she wouldn't like it. Then she said she told me she didn't spin why did I send her spinning stuff. Apparently she isn't someone that likes new things. This girl really hurt me if you read how the email was written you would know how brass she really was. You are required to spend 60 over the entire sp. I added it up I had spent well over that with shipping, I sent e-cards every week, kept her updated on the package that was stuck in the snow storm, I thought I had done really good and she slammed me. She personally burnt me out of SP and its too bad because I had really enjoyed it.

Now please keep in mind like I said my pal on the other end has been great, SP7 was ok and so was SP8 but this just left a real sour taste in me. My mother always told me if you cant say anything nice don't say it at all, I don't think she was taught that. I will not reveal her name or blog because that wouldn't be me but I will say if she does ever read this I am sorry I couldn't meet your expectations. I'm not sending a reveal to her telling her who I am whats the point I didn't send anything she liked anyways. I always thought that was the best part.I was also going to send one more package with some real wool yard to make it up to her and Ray said no absolutely not, after that email I don't want you to sent her anything at all.
I actually met the person I spoiled in sp7 last year at spa and she was really cool.
ok I'm done ranting that felt good it has been eating at me all week. now on to the good stuff.

I have been knitting my fingers off. I told you I finished that baby blanket then I brought it to my moms for her to store until the shower, When she opens it I will take a picture I want to hurry up and make a sweater and hat to go with it.
Then I knit Michael 2 pairs of mittens
Now I'm making a prayer blanket for the church, I want to be able to give someone the same peace that they gave to Kats Mom.
Then I'm going to start my expensive sweater.

Below is a picture I took of Michael with his new vest from cub scouts. One of the grandmothers made the vest for all the boys and my mom put his patches on it.
This Saturday we are going with the scouts to a snow tubing place in Windham. Luckily they make there own snow so we wont have to worry about that. It has finally started getting cold around here last Saturday it was almost 70. Kat can you believe we were in shorts in January.

I better get back to work. I leave you with Michael.

2007-01-04T16:44:00.000-05:00

phew I'm caught up with all my stuff. We just did end of year at work what a pain in the but that is. Now I finally have 5 minutes to catch everyone up on me and my family.

Christmas::: Was great for the first time that I can remember oh since I was 15 or so I actually had my mom over for Christmas morning, her and my stepdad always went to his kids house and they are kinda pissy at each other right now so we got the benefit of that. My dad and Katie also came over and my grandmother, We had a housefull for about 4 hours and I loved it. I made 3lbs of bacon, eggs and toast for everyone. There was no fighting and we all got great gifts. I had bought my meme a parrakeet since she is alone now I thought it would be something for her to talk to. Now she tells me its dumb just sits in its food all day and doesnt sing very well, I cant win but she likes it anyways. I got my mom a very, very small pair of diamond earings and she cried, she has always wanted diamonds even though you need a microscope to see them she liked them anyways thats my mom for you. after everyone left we sat around watched movies and played with Michaels new toys the rest of the day.

Last Thursday Rays mom came over for the night to see Michael and brought him his gifts, I had to run to ll beans for a minute so I didnt have to spend much time with her. Michael enjoys seeing her.
Saturday we drove to Mass to see Rays grandmother, she is having a harder time without her husband than my meme is. They would have been married 60 years this april that amazing. We stopped at his dads and then drove home. Its always a long but enjoyable day.

For new years my dad, Katie, Mark and Tim came over we all drank and played cards nothing special but my cheeks did hurt from laughing soooo much.

That is really all my news I finished my fingerless gloves with the yard one of my secret pals gave me when I get a minute at home I'll take a picture new years day I made a pair of mittens for Michael he keeps losing them and outside the other day it was damp so we kept throwing the pairs he had in the dryer when they were done he would swap again, My pal got her package accourding to UPS late because of all the snow they have but she got is. I hope she liked it she hasnt posted about it yet.
My pal contacted me I am looking for a box from her, the others were great and I'm sure this one will be to.
Ok time to go home
Later

2006-12-29T13:45:00.000-05:00

I'm ok, here, knitting and still reading everyone post that I can but I have been realllly busy this week end of year at work, the holidays and relitives visiting and tomorrow we are driving to Mass to do some visiting. things should be back to normal next week I hope.
Please have a safe and happy new year.

2006-12-20T06:09:00.000-05:00

Look what I made a needle felted gnome. I took a class at the portland fiber gallery last night. My aunt was going to come with me but she bailed, actually her boss gave her a last minute report to do. Thats ok I still had fun there were 6 people in the class and every gnome came out a little different, it was alot easier that I thought it would be. I might make a bunch next year for gifts a little late to do it this year. Have fun shopping I have to finish mine on Saturday I have no more time off.
oh and Michael lost his second tooth last night I'll have to get a picture when I get home I didnt even get to see him, he was in bed when I got home and still sleeping when I left, I hate that.
got to get to work Later

I FOUND IT

2006-12-19T11:08:00.000-05:00

The card game was called 12 step rummy.

Now I just have to pick up some more cards and booze for this weekend I just home my dad or Kati doesnt get sick thats what usually happens when we make plans with them.

thanks for all the help looking for the name of the game.

2006-12-18T06:11:00.000-05:00

my son made mom proud. Yesterday it was his turn to light the candles at church and he did a great job. Then he had to go up with the childrens choir and sing he is such a good little boy I just had to brag. Yes he has a tie on.

Knitting news; Did I tell you I finally finished my baby blanket I was making for my friend I am soo glad that is done. I am now making some fingerless mittens for myself it gets chilly at work. Then I'm going to make mmm I dont know something, Tomorrow night I am taking a needle felting class, my aunt is coming with me she said she was looking for something to do on Tuesdays so I asked her to tag along it should be fun.

Question: back in the 80's we used to play a card game that was really fun and I dont know the name of it. There were nine or more things you had to do the first one was something like run of 3, set of 3, one was run of 7 set of 3, 3 sets of 3, the last one was a full run, then if you got it and the others didnt they had to do that line over the object was to get all the things done first you start a new hand every time someone completes a line. we have no plans for christmas eve so my dad and his girlfriend are coming over to play cards if we can remember the rules or what it was called. I emailed my ex stepmom she is the one we got it from but she hasnt gotten back to me.

Edit:99 looks close but it doesnt have the other thing run of 5 set of 4 that this game had.

work has been crazy so I have to go. Later.

2006-12-11T13:25:00.000-05:00

Have you ever been forgotten on your birthday by your child. Well I have for the 3rd year in a row my daughter has forgotten my birthday 4 years ago she remembered because Ray needed her help getting my present. I would understand my 6 year old not knowing but she is 16. When we were on our way home Saturday she called I kinda got excited but nope she asked me to print something for her for school no mention of my birthday. I dont even want a gift I want nothing but a phone call is that to much to ask. And no I'm not going to tell her, I cried enough about it the other night.
Michael did his best to make me feel better after church yesterday he did something that brought me to tears in front of everyone. After mass every week they take the flowers off the alter and give them to someone, while I was getting us some hot cocoa and cookies Michael went up to the lady that had the flowers and asked her for one when she said why he said my sister forgot mommies birthday and I want to make her feel better. He came running up to me and said here mommy, happy birthday, I love you gave me a hug and ran off just as fast as he came. The woman he got the flower from told me the rest I think she was teary eyed too.
Kids are amazing arent they both of them made me cry this weekend for different reasons.
I'm working all week and sometime in all the busy stuff going on I have to attempt to do some shopping wish me luck.

Its my Birthday!!!!!

2006-12-09T19:00:00.000-05:00

All right all right Kat ratted me out its my birthday. I love you Kat for being my best friend. hubby and I went out last night for Lobster stew down the beach and spent all day today hunting, I saw one deer just at dark 5 feet away it was cool nature is amazing. (no I didnt get a shot at her) Just like my friends that visit me hereare amazing. We are now going to sit on the couch for the rest of the night just to warm up from today. and watch the movie my darling hubby bought me.

2006-12-06T10:21:00.000-05:00

We have A Picture!!
here is what my secret pal sent this time cookies, coco, some cotton yarn and the green is soooo soft Michael kept rubbing it on his cheek and said can you make something for me with this I Love it.
Thanks again secret Pal.

2006-11-30T18:35:00.000-05:00

hello, hello, hello

I'm having a weird one, one day I'm on cloud 9 the next I'm moping around and dont talk to me.
I think the holidays are playing with my emotions. Last weekend was nice it was Rays first weekend off because he started his new job this week mon-fri I love it we have time to fill doing stuff. He has time and I fill it with my honey do list that is ever growing. He is such a good sport.

Last week I found out my best friends mom was having some lumps removed So I asked the church we go to if they could please send her a prayer blanket that had been blessed a couple of weeks ago they were happy to send one. Well Yesterday I was in the hospital getting my remicade treatment and who was wheeled out right next to me her mom. we were both so happy to see each other the nurses we laughing because we knew each other. I was IV'd in so she came and sat with me, and her husband and son. I had not seen Kats brother in at least 12 years, mom and dad I run into every now and then, Get this she got the blanket the night before and she was thrilled with it, dad said she slept with it that night and it couldnt have come at a better time, she had been really nervous before and it helped her. I cant wait to tell the people at church this sunday that is the exact reason we make these blankets it feels so good when the people that truly need them are helped. I have joined the prayershawl group on yahoo because I was looking for a pattern so I can make some for the church to replace the one they sent to her and to make others feel as good as she did when she received it.
lets see what else is going on,mmmm I'm doing the UVB lights for my psoriasis did I tell you that already the super tanning booth 'm in there for 40 seconds now it takes me 15 each way to get there I havent seen any difference yet I am so impatient I want it gone NOW.
I'm so busy all the time but I really dont have anything else to say, I'm sitting here waiting for a game warden to come over my house to tag the fox I shot and the coyote that Ray shot so we can bring them to the taxidermist and get the hides tanned, never thought I would invite the warden to my house if you are a hunter or have one in the family you know exactly what I'm talking about.
ok he just called and is almost here got to go Later

2006-11-22T10:26:00.000-05:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

hello everyone are you all ready for thanksgiving, I am because I'm not cooking I'm going to my moms and I'm very happy with that.
well this week is flying by last Saturday Ray got another deer it was a small one but it will taste good, the only problem was our little freezer in the shed is already full so full we had a case of water on top to hold it closed,(not a bad thing) so Saturday night we went to Best buy and bought a BIG stand up freezer and it has a light, why am I excited about a light because there isnt one in the shed and everytime I went out to get something I had a flashlight between my teeth while digging into the small freezer trying to find what I wanted not fun. This new one has a big draw on the bottom I'm going to put all the hamburger in and shelves on the door for the sausage and 4 big shelves inside, can you tell how excited I am just for a freezer, I'm most happy about the fact it will be mostly full for the winter.
Michael got his report card yesterday and he did really good he got all 2's and 3's with 4 being the best and he got a couple of those too. I believe he did so good because of the note on the bottom she wrote " I can see Michael really trying but getting fustrated with distractions, I think it really helps that we have such open communication and can only see him getting better because of it" That makes the mom in me feel good.
Yesterday I started my light treatment for my psoriasis, wow is it quick I'm in there no exageration 30 second naked, then put a shirt and underwear on and get in for 30 more seconds, I really hope this helps, cross you fingers, I think she is going to take out my stitches today also, she said it looks good, I hope so they stick to my shirt and itch, The biopsy results arent back yet I wish they would hurry up I always get ansy waiting.
Tonight is my night I'm going to see the Trans-Syberian Orchestra I am taking my friend Lori, she is picking me up at work at 5, the show starts at 7:30, I cant wait we have 3rd row seats I bought them as soon as the presale started, she has never heard of them but I think she'll like it, after the show I might talk her into going out for a drink in the old port, just because.

tomorrow morning I'm going bow hunting lets fill the big freezer then we are going to my moms, this is the last weekend for gun hunting and Ray has one more permit to fill so we will be out Fri-Saturday, Now that Ray is all done the old job we will be able to spend so much more time together, he starts the new job on Monday.

knitting news: my pal did get her box she was on vaca and got it when she got home I'm glad nothing got broken.
At church last week I asked for a prayer blanket to be sent to my friend Kats mom she is having a lump removed from her breast, as soon as I get done the blanket for my friends baby I'm going to make a couple of lap blankets for the church, I would have made her one myself but I'm just not fast enough to get it done in time for her. If any of my readers want to knit a lap blanket for the church drop me a note and I'll send you the address, they just want small lap blankets nothing to big in case the person getting it is in a wheelchair.

All and all this has been a really great week.
Please have a safe and happy turkey day.

2006-11-17T08:45:00.000-05:00

Warning long boring post ahead I’m not very interesting this week :)

Monday lets see work and tae kwon do,
Tuesday work and parent teacher conference, where along with Michaels teacher we decided to get Michael tested for add/adhd, he has been having a lot of issues that just don’t seem to be curing on their own despite out best efforts the poor little bugger is struggling, you can see him wanting to do good but he just cant focus. I had discussed it with his doctor last week and the PET test should tell us in black and white whether it’s a bored thing, just a boy thing or add/adhd. The teacher also recommended a couple of books to me. She asked would you read them if I told you their names, she doesn’t know me to well, I ordered them that night they should be here today. I called the principal Wednesday to make sure the ball was rolling on getting him tested. I can be pushy about stuff when I have to.
Wednesday guess what I found a new dermatologist and he is good and cute. He actually had me put a jonny on which the other derm never did and checked out all the areas I have psoriasis. He looked at all the cream and stuff I had with me and decided to do a biopsy on one of the spots, he said that from the biopsy he should be able to tell if this is being caused by a med reaction or just plain old psoriasis. He also wants to start light therapy next week. It some kind of natural light that treats the entire body and he thought that would really help the bad areas except my scalp because there is to much hair so I have one cream I have to stay on. When I was talking to the nurse after she said she had heard that the other derm I had seen was very impersonal and didn’t touch people and I wasn’t the first person to complain about him so that made me feel good.
After the appointment I went home and waited for Ray who went to a second interview at a company in Biddeford. And guess what he got the job its more money and mon-fri no weekends we will actually be a family again. There are no benefits but I cover the insurance he is going to start a retirement on his own. And he also signed up for a welding class in April, he said he was always interested in welding so that might be his next profession, who knows I told him he should take the class whether he got the job or not just in case he doesn’t like the job once the class is done he can look around. So Wednesday afternoon we went bow hunting for a while didn’t see anything.
Thursday I got up feeling icky brought Michael to school and went to work and all of a sudden I was sick, my stomach hurt, my head hurt and I had cramps so bad in my abdomen that I was in tears. I left work at 3 picked up Michael and went to bed, he was sooo sweet he kept saying mommy can I get you anything, I called Jamie to come over and take him to see an author that was at the school. I am soo glad that Jamie has her license and can do things for me now. I went to bed at 330 and got up at 7 for some toast and went back to bed.
Today I feel a lot better I still have a cold and headache but nothing like yesterday, I was in soo much pain I thought that I was going to the E.R. I was (this) close to calling rescue thinking it was my pancreas again but luckily it went away.
This weekend we are going hunting, the kids are going to the movies and Ray is working his last weekend yeee hawwww.

Knitting notes. My spoilee secret pal got her present according to UPS and my spoiler is sending me another present I love this pal thing. I love getting mail that’s not bills. And the best thing I am almost done the baby blanket for my friend. The only thing that stinks is I have been knitting yellow/white now for 3 months and she found out Monday she is having a girl. At least the sweater and hat can be something other than yellow.

I’ll be back after the weekend.

2006-11-13T08:43:00.000-05:00

This looked like fun and I'm such an 80's girl. The Queensrych concert Saturday night was great they played ALL of operation mindcrime I and II plus an encore. 3 hours with one set change of 10 minutes. The show was sold out and we met a really nice couple in line then ended up sitting with them so the entire night was fun.
I'll come back later after I get done with some work stuff.

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2006-11-07T18:29:00.000-05:00

hey look two post in one day. I was going to take a class on doing cables and got some bad news I was the only one that signed up so they cancelled. I wish I had friends that lived near me to teach me I was really dissapointed she said she could show me the basics but its not the same as taking a class once a week and getting out of the house. Maybe next time.

at least my Secret pal made my knitting day :)

When I got home today I had a wonderful present waiting for me. Thank you secret pal I got note card,mmmm chocolate, some beautiful hand dyed yarn and some for me to try dyeing.
I had to come back and show you a picture.Thanks again secret Pal.

2006-11-06T05:25:00.001-05:00

brrr baby its chilly outside. I just came in from lunch and decided its been a week I'd better post. I uploaded the picture below Sunday and have just been to busy to type anything out.
Saturday was a good hunting day we went out at first light and at 7:10 I had three deer come down the hill towards me. I had time enough to pick the biggest one. She weighed 108 at the butcher shop. As many of you know myself and my husband hunt for food reasons, we hunt to fill our freezer so this is a good size deer to do just that.
Lets see other news, when I get out of work I am going to vote. Tomorrow we have choir practice I'm not sure if Michael wants to keep doing it or not we leave it up to him but he does spend alot of time there goofing off.
Does anyone know about add/adhd Michael has a best friend with it and his mother said we should get Mike checked out but I dont want him on meds because once they are on it they dont come off but at the same time he is very hard to settle down. I'm torn on what to think. He is just sooo moody. I have to go to my regular doc tomorrow for another pap this once every three month thing is getting old but after two clean and one not after the cryro I have to get another one to see if things have changed. I might ask him about Michael at the same time while I'm in the stirrups. Also I'm not happy with the dermatologist I'm seeing for my psoriasis. my legs are not cleaning up and my hair is still not growing the derm doesnt seem concerned but my hair is super thin and it has bald spots all over and I'm really self conscious about it. I want my thick hair back NOW.

Knitting news: nothing to report I'm still working on the baby blanket this thing is alot bigger that I thought it was going to be and the psoriasis on my hands makes anything tough to work on. the yarn catches on my dry skin.
I'm ready to send out another package to my pal all little things from Maine it might tell her where I'm from but I think she'll like it.

So I leave you with a picture of my deer. No I dont look that happy in the picture but I was happy and really, really cold, I had taken my jacket off to clean her and then washed my hands in a stream and my hands were freezing the expression is honey hurry up and take the picture so I can get my gloves and coat on. Also we took it with my cell phone its all we had with us.

Have a great week.

I just remembered I forgot to tell you I'm going to a concert Saturday night in new hampshire, I had bought Ray tickets to see queensryche for his birthday back in August and the concert is this Saturday. I cant wait they are doing Mindcrime I & II should be a good show. I'm glad I didnt have tickets to the Guns and Roses show last night in Portland they cancelled at the last minute I'm not surprised thats why I didnt buy tickets.

2006-10-31T15:14:00.000-05:00

Its only Tuesday and it has been a hell of a week already. We went hunting in the rain alllll day Saturday saw a couple of deer but nothing to shoot at it was really windy.
Sunday I had to hike up a mountain with Michael and the cub scouts and it was so windy we kept hearing trees and branches fall.
Monday night Michael decided he didnt want to go to tae kwon do and it was fine with me I was still pooped from the weekend.
Today is Happy Halloween for some people my darling son gave me the guilt trip this morning. Apparently they are having a party at day care for all the kids and he wanted me to go. But I cant the guy I work with has to work a second job tonight and cant stay to five so I have to. Michael gave me the mom you never come to my school stuff, now wait I do everthing else like choir and hiking but he said its not he same its not school stuff. So he made me feel like total shit. The guy I work with said no so I have no choice of course he doesnt have a family at home so he just doesnt give a shit. So I called my mom and asked her to go with Michael and then take him to her house for supper and we will pick him up and go trick or treating from there.
We only go a few places, like close family and then just on our street but its tough working till 5 and his bed time being at 7 and we dont really eat the candy either, ok I'm done crabbing.

on a good note well kinda I had my year review at work today I cant believe its been a year anyways most of it was good but he said I should go cloths shopping because some days my appearence needs working on. I was like what, I never saw that coming. so that was the bad news for one because I cant afford new cloths he'll just have to deal with it, but the good news is I got a raise it wasnt much but its something. The funniest part is today I was sooo mad because my partner wouldnt cover for me I started looking for another job and the raise has made it tough to leave its almost worth putting up with his shit.

Knitting news: I am stilll working on the baby blanket for my friend I think I'm going to put it down and do some christmas gifts she isnt due until spring anyways.
My secret Pal got her box and posted about it on her website I'm glad I was getting worried it was lost in the mail and I heard from my Pal this week she had some type of operation on her leg Get well soon secret Pal.
I'd send you a get well card but I dont know who you are ;) Thanks for staying in touch.

2006-10-26T13:16:00.000-04:00

hello
well almost another week has passed not much new on going on here. Michael had his normal week tae kwon do on Monday and Choir on Wednesday. We were bad parents last Sunday we had a bunch of running around to do and by the time we all got home we alll forgot about cub scouts. come on its on Sunday night, its tough to remember, until we get an email saying sorry Michael couldnt make it last night. oops.
this Saturday is opening day for hunting season and its gonna rain and rain hard with lots of wind sounds like fun doesnt it. We were going to ride up with our buddy Mark because Jamie is going to take Michael and my truck and go bowling or to the movies or something. Last night we were talking about it, I think we will also be taking Ray's truck in case I'm to wet and want to go home. I'll probably be fine but just in case I want a way to get out.

Lets see on the knitting front I'm about half way done a baby blanket I'm making for a friend that is due after christmas, I figured I needed that much time just in case I get bored with it and put it down to do something in between and let me tell you doing a blanket pattern over and over is boring.
Does anyone know how to put those cool bars on the side of blogger for knitters to show works in progress I want some and dont know how. If you do and will help me I'll give you my login. Please and thank you.

I havent heard from my secret pal about the box I sent her last tuesday but I know ups and 10 days from maine to colorado sounds normal for ground. I dont know. I hope she likes it. when this is over I'm going to ask her to get me a Broncos jersey I live in Maine and love the Broncos doesnt that wind my die hard pat fan neighbors when they play the Broncos I hell ya hooo out the door every time they score just because every sunday we listen to them do it when the pats score. Ray likes the Giants and he grew up in Mass. we are just odd balls I guess
got to get back to work later

2006-10-20T15:09:00.000-04:00

I am having one of those days, its rainy out and work is slow and I miss some old friends, you know the ones you thought you would grow old with. I have two such friends D & G I have spent most of the day searching the net just trying to find a trace of them in a blog or myspace, something, I found G. on a white pages search but it had no real info unless I want to pay for it. D. nothing no trace I thought the web was all powerful.
G. and I met in college we were really close and she met D. and we all used to pal around together, he and I went to pick out her engagement ring for her the jeweler thought we were the ones getting married. Move ahead a few years I became much closer to D like a brother he told me first when they were having problems and he wanted a divorce, I consoled G when it happened. I approved his future wife and still love her with him they are good for each other. G was there for me when I got married and then divorced and then met Ray. I was there for G when she decided to move to NC. Then D. moved with his wife to SC for work. I went and saw D a couple of February's ago and not last summer but the summer before he came back to Maine and I saw him.
Now we have all lost touch. I wonder now and then what become of G. when she moved I never heard from her again. She knew D and I were friends and really close and I refused to take sides for either of them and I thought she was ok with that but she severed all ties with me it seams.
D. I dont have any idea why he stopped staying in touch. I sent their kids christmas gifts last year and the year before and have never heard a thing about it. No thank you nothing I wonder if they even got them. I tried using the last email I had for D and got no reply his other email didnt work.

For some reason the last couple of weeks I really miss D. like a part of me has been missing and if I find him I will be whole again. Does this make sense to you.

G. I would just like to know if she is ok.
Old friends what becomes of them do they ever think of me. I have one old and dear friend that knows everything about me. I make new friends but its not the same its the old friends I feel myself missing more and more.
I guess the rain outside is just really bringing me down. I got an email from Michaels teacher that he was real whiney today and cried alot about little things like he was just down and overtired today too.
so that didnt help.
Please try to have a good weekend the rain they say is going to stop overnight so I am going to try and go hunting for awhile in the AM maybe that will help my mood.
See Ya.

p.s any ideas on how to find someone drop me an email at mainiax@gmail.com if you have any good ideas or post a reply here.

sp9 contest

2006-10-17T10:14:00.000-04:00

1. Where is your favorite knitting spot?
I like to knit outside on the deck in the summer time and my recliner in the winter

2. If you suddenly could never knit again (shudder) - what would you do instead?
spin or if I ever have the property I would raise my own animals.

3. If you could travel anywhere in the world - where would you go and why?
austria - that is where my husbands grandmother is from it sounds like such a beautiful country.

4. When you were little - What did you want to do "when you grew up?" Are you doing it?
I wanted to be a police officer, I went to college for law enforcement and when I went for the physical agility test to be a game warden my older person dream I couldnt pass the running part, now I dispatch for a local forklift company

5. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
ben and jerrys--either carmel sutra or the new strawberry cheesecake.mmmmmm

I got this from my sp9 hostess over at yarnyenta she said anyone can play. go check out her site.

I have heard from my pal twice already thanks pal and am sending out my first package today hope she likes it.

happy birthday Michael

2006-10-08T20:23:00.000-04:00

Today is my little guys 6th birthday. We got up this morning and I made him french toast for breakfast and we went to church. Michael really loves Sunday school, after class he learned about lighting the candles on the alter when mass starts. Next week he will be doing it for the first time, its funny how excited and important he felt. He also wants to join the jr choir and play I dont care its just one more night we will now have something to do out of the house, like he doesnt do enough already. I took a few pictures today the first one is of Michael and his big sister Jamie she rarely lets me take her picture and she is soo pretty I loved this picture.

the second picture is of me with my parents I dont have many of those either. I am very lucky in the way that my parents divorced when I was 12 but they have always remained friends to this day. Right after the party Ray and Michael left to go to my mother in laws house until Wednesday. They are going bird hunting up there its a good dad/son vaca they try to do every year but I miss them already. The next couple of days will be boring in a good way.

Hey whats up with my knitting I finished the sweater for michael I so wanted him to wear it up to my mother in laws because she is so good I wanted her to be impressed one problem Michael grew faster than I could knit, I knit the largest pattern but I think it was made for small children or for the smallest 8 year old size I've ever seen. Then when I was at my appointment at the hospital this week I started a hat for my stepdad. He was over today and it is HUGE on him like twice as big as it should have been. This is about the 7th hat I have made using this pattern but I have always done it in wool which he is allergic to so this one was pure acrilic and it sucked. So this week I get to go by new yarn and start a new one. I'll donate the big one to the church cloths drive someone will have a big head there I'm sure.

Ok I have to go do nothing thats weird to say. If you want to see all my pictures of the party go to the photo album on the right

p.s I heard from my next secret pal already this is going to be fun already.

Secret Pal 9 Questions

2006-10-06T14:41:00.000-04:00

What is/are your favorite yarn/s to knit with? What fibers do you absolutely *not* like?
I only have one do not like and that is lion brand home spun I learned on it and now hate how it splits.
2. What do you use to store your needles/hooks in?
my SP7 pal make me a beautiful needle case.
3. How long have you been knitting? Would you consider your skill level to be beginner, intermediate or advanced?I have been knitting for almost 3 years, and I think I’m about a almost intermediate.
4. Do you have an Amazon or other online wish list?
yes its in my sidebar (hope it works)
5. What's your favorite scent? (for candles, bath products etc.)
I like anything NOT avon for some reason they make me sneezy must be cuz my grandmother wore so much of it.
6. Do you have a sweet tooth? Favorite candy?
who doesn’t, I love taffy and fudge.
7. What other crafts or Do-It-Yourself things do you like to do? Do you spin?
I make candles out of mason jars for craft fairs and I bought a spinning wheel last year.
8. What kind of music do you like? Can your computer/stereo play MP3s? (if your buddy wants to make you a CD)
I mostly listen to 80’s hair bands, but will listen to anything I can understand the words too and have recently started listening to piano music.
9. What's your favorite color? Or--do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer? Any colors you just can't stand?
I like autumn colors best for my house, and blue and pink are my favorites to wear.no purple please I just cant do purple
10. What is your family situation? Do you have any pets?
I have been married to Ray for 6 years, and have two kids a 16 year old daughter, and a 6 year old son.we have some fish and a guinea pig.
11. Do you wear scarves, hats, mittens or ponchos?
yes, yes, yes, and yes
12. What is/are your favorite item/s to knit?
when I go to appointments I usually bring a dishcloth cuz its small to carry and I don’t have to think about what I’m making.
13. What are you knitting right now?
I am currently working on a sweater for me this time and its taking forever its real lacey I think I was nuts when I decided to try this one
14. Do you like to receive handmade gifts?
Who doesn’t.
15. Do you prefer straight or circular needles? Bamboo, aluminum, plastic?
I’m slowly switching to bamboo instead of aluminum, and slowly trying circular I just haven’t gotten the hang of it yet.
16. Do you own a yarn winder and/or swift?
I bought a yarn winder last month to use for my spinning.
17. How did you learn to knit?
a wonderful lady I used to work with taught me to knit on our lunch breaks.
18. How old is your oldest UFO?
I started one sock about a year ago and never got the hang of getting the corners tight so I gave up on it.
19. What is your favorite holiday?
I like the 4th of July we all go on a family camping trip it’s a nice weekend that I always look forward to, not stressful like the big holidays.
20. Is there anything that you collect?
I collect moose and black bear things we are an outdoorsy family
21. Any books, yarns, needles or patterns out there you are dying to get your hands on? What knitting magazine subscriptions do you have?
I get spin out and knit it magazines I have a bunch of I want books in my wishlist on amazon.
22. Are there any new techniques you'd like to learn?
I saw a woman in boston knitting two socks on one circular needle and have never been able to find a pattern to do that and I have looked and searched all over. I think its called magic loop.
23. Are you a sock knitter? What are your foot measurements?
no I started one once and it was coming out like crap so I quit I would love to have some of those cool homemade socks I see on everyones blogs if I ever found the pattern from the ? above I might be tempted to try again. My shoe size is a womans 8-8.5 I’ve never actually measured my foot.
24. When is your birthday?(mm/dd)
December 9th

To my pal if you have any other questions please ask away!!!

2006-10-03T05:58:00.000-04:00

Hello everyone lets see I have got an update for you. where to start. I'm a boring person wait if you read my blog you already know that.
I went out hunting Saturday and saw my first deer of the year. She had to stop behind the one pile of brush near where I was sitting she turned and looked right at me and she was GONE. Lets just say that pile of brush is NOT in my way for next weekend.
Sunday we went to the Fryberg fair it was drizzly and crowded everyone was in the buildings to get out of the rain. So you walked in and bam into a wall of steamy body heat. My ex-ass was there we talked for all of two minutes you know how is the family and stuff. Its kinda funny I spent 5 years of my life with this man and its like running into a stranger and saying hi. Absolutly no feeling at all almost weird in a way. Oh and he still looks like shit at least 10 years older than he actually is gotta love that.
Michael had fun went on some rides I like that he is big enough that I dont always have to go with him anymore, its alot cheaper that way.
here are a couple of pictures of him.

Tomorrow I have to go to the hospital for my next Remicade treatment this stuff is pricy but it is working sooo good almost to good I'll be a little graffic here with Crohns you always have to go and its really loose and now with texture I'm like ouch that hurts its to firm. quit laughing at me I can hear you. at least its not the runs right.

I also called my dermatologist today the stuff I have for my head isnt really working its a moose and its hard to get onto the scalp so he called me in a shampoo to see if that helps I hope its cheaper thats all I have to say even with insurance it was 40 and thats alot right now.

Michaels birthday is next Sunday, we are buying little pumpkins again for the kids to decorate they really liked that last year. And this year a big change for me I'm buying pizza and having it delivered. Every year I cook on the grill and miss almost everything that is happening I was doing burgers and dogs and all the fixing this year I refuse to cook. I want to enjoy the party.

Ray and Michael are leaving after the party to go up to my mother in laws bird hunting for a couple of days they were gonna go next week leave thursday night and come home sunday but as luck would have it they are doing school photos on Friday and I really dont want him to miss the class pictures, I know I'm gready but this happens only once a year and I want the pictures of my baby and his first grade class.

Secret Pal 9 is ready to start I will try and post the answers to this rounds questions by the end of the week.

2006-09-25T06:13:00.000-04:00

I just spent the last 40 minutes doing a huge post and it control v instead of c and lost the entire thing I am soo mad I cant believe this aaaahhhh.

ok lets start over.

Jamie and I had a wonderful trip to the boston knit out on Sunday, We got up and left home at 6am to help set up the tables and chairs. After we got done setting up we rested for awhile before walking to quincy market for lunch.
We looked for the stores I remembered from growing up, the pig store, the lefty store and stairway to heaven, couldnt find a one of them, it had all changed to expensive restraunts and stores I could never afford to shop at.
I dont know what was up with the bugs around there, the bugs liked my orange volunteer shirt everytime I looked down I had fruit fly type bugs all over me, Jamie kept swatting them off my back.

We then walked back to the knit out and got some great prizes and a book signed by the author Jill Eaton. It has some wonderful patterns in it. I didnt know until then she is from Maine not to far from me like two towns over.
We sat around resting our feet until 4:30 when we walked over to the charles playhouse to see the blue mand group. Jamie and I agreed this show was wonderful we would both like to see them again. Maybe next year if we go to the knit out we will make it a mom and daughter tradition. the show was that good. we took a couple of pictures see below : now remember this is at 7pm and we had been outdoors walking and sweating all day so the pictures of us arent the best, and the guy that took them was very close. My thought was lets take pictures here cuz at a big show we would never get this close to them.

After the show we had a little difficulty getting out of Boston, we came out of the garage and there were no signs saying how to get to the highway we drove around for 30 minutes or so before we found it. We stopped in Saugus to get gas it was only 2.20 per gal big savings compared to a couple of weeks ago. When we got to about NH I asked Jamie do you have much experience driving on the highway? (she just got her license two weeks ago) she said lots with uncle gary. I'm like good I'm done, I'm so tired I won't get us home. So she took over the next thing I know she says mommy we are home. I dont remember the ride so she must have done ok we got home safe I wouldnt have. Kat you remember that drive home from new orleans I was that tired.

Yesterday I did not want to get up for work. My legs ached all over, I have psoriasis on my feet now like on my palms and I walked funny all day and in doing so used muscles I dont usually use and didnt know I had until they now hurt like hell. But it was worth it.

Tonight we are going to church at 6:30 to have family pictures done for the new directory they are doing. We get a free picture too. Ray and Jamie are both coming even though then dont come to mass they are part of the family so I'm making them come with me. not that they mind really or that I would given them a choice. LOL

This sunday Michael and I are going to the fryberg fair. the fair has a great big fiber building that I could get lost in all day Michael and meme wont let me get to lost he just wants to go on the rides, rides, rides. To me the best part or worst part depends on how you look at it is that my ex works the fair every year he comes up from NY just to work here.I absolutly have no feeling for this man I just love the fact that every year he looks more and more like shit. No this is not Jamies dad this is just the ex-ass I had a short marriage to. Seeing him makes me look at Ray with so much more love I have the best man no doubt about that. I look at the ex and think of the garth brooks song "she's gonna make it, he never will" and laugh my life isnt as bad as it could have been if I was still with him. Ray and I may be broke alot but we have love for each other and michael and life is good.

Now a couple of reminders:

its time to sign up for Secret Pal 9 it starts soon dont miss it

also dont miss the boobie-thon that starts October 1st its for a good cause BOOBIES. Do it for the love of having boobies or the love of looking at them come on you know you want too, its for boobies how could you not want to help.

2006-09-18T06:19:00.000-04:00

I know I know its been a week since my last post, I kept thinking about it and then would get busy and/or be tired and just go to bed.

So the last couple of weeks here is a quick review:

Me—lets see I’m the most boring person lately, I work and I work I come home, cook, clean maybe knit a little on Michaels sweater and go to bed. This week I’ll be taping shows almost every night. I cant wait for the greys anatomy to start. I love that show.
This coming weekend will be a big one for me I’m taking my daughter Jamie down to Boston to the knit out and then to the blue man group. I cant wait. It should be so much fun we are volunteering for the set up first thing in the am then we are going to walk to quincy market and see all the sites I don’t think Jamie has ever walked around Boston before. Oh and really big news on the Jamie front this past Thursday Jamie got her drivers license. I was so proud of her I wish I could by her a car but I just can right now we are struggling with our own bill. I hope ray gets a better paying job soon.
yesterday I did go to LL Bean and exchange Michael's backpack that had a malfunction for a new one I love living this close to beans so I can do that. Jamie came over and watched Michael so I actually had a few minutes to myself and I enjoyed it. Even though I bought nothing for myself.

Michael—has been a lot better in school and on the bus, we went and met with his teacher last Thursday and she thinks he is a little chatty but doesn’t feel there are any real problems Yet. We will keep an eye on things. He if very moody at home but I personally think a lot of it is to do with him being tired. He gets up with me and we leave by 6am every morning and he doesn’t get picked from daycare until 4:30 –5 I know it’s a long day for such a little guy, I sooo wish I could be out early and pick him up everyday but I have to work until 5 everyday so I have no choice. I so wish I did.
This past Saturday Ray and Michael went and sold popcorn for the tiger scouts at the local grocery store. He wore his uniform for the first time isn’t he cute…

Ray—ok for all you non hunting reader you can stop now. I don’t want any hateful emails ok. This is how we feed our family. This past Saturday Ray got his first deer of the year. He was so excited he called right after he shot it and asked me to come out and give him a hand tracking her. Michael decided he wanted to come, he is very involved with all aspects of hunting with us. It took us about an hour because it was getting dark and she crossed a brook twice so it was a tough track, but Ray had made a really good shot.
Michael got a little nervous walking out in the dark heck I don’t love being in the woods when its that dark but we did it as a family.
Ray and I found out last night we got drawn to be part of a deer harvesting project at a game preserve in our state there are more deer on this property than it can handle so they have bowhunters come in and thin the herd. All the deer taken get donated to the local soup kitchen so its for a good cause. Its from nov 15 to dec 15 we have to commit to so many hunts during that time period they give you an area and that’s where you hunt period. I did it a few years ago it’s a good time a lot of teamwork involved everyone looks out for everyone else.
People that shun hunting should know that ray and I have not bought store meat in over 4 years we hunt for deer, I have harvested a bear, and we buy a couple of pigs and chickens from a friends farm every year. Plus we go to a local town every time they call and pick up the road kill deer that people don’t want. It fills the freezer and our tummy’s.
The butcher shop we use was closed Saturday night so Sunday morning I took the deer down and put her in the truck and got ready for church, we dropped her off on the way and will have fresh meat by Friday .
Oh yeah Michael loves Sunday school going was a really good decision for him he thinks its better than regular school of course it’s a lot of playing and coloring.

So now I leave you with a picture of Rays deer. Close the page now if you don’t want to see. She weighed 105 just in case you are wondering.

2006-09-11T05:49:00.000-04:00

A Day to Remember.
I had a long post planned for yesterday and got busy and today just isnt the day for it. Today is a day for remembering, Ray and I went to New York after an archery tourniment in July of 2002, We were in awe ground zero was huge, the impact on the entire area was amazing, I took a couple of pictures of a fire truck that was parked next to the parking lot for the statue of liberty ferry. These photos dont do it justice. It was beautiful people were all standing around just looking at it.
Do you remember where you were that day. I was working to the town public works dept. within hours of the crash we were putting up barricades around important buildings and the military gun making company in our town. We played security for about a week at different locations some of the barricades are still in place today, the world is a different place now. We were part of history that the younger kids will read about in there history books. We saved a bunch of newspapers from that week and put them away so someday Michael will have them.
Please thank your local fireman, policeman and any military personal you may know. Its a good day to remember thoses living and those that gave all.

Happy anniversary to me and Ray

2006-09-02T08:41:00.000-04:00

Yup today is our 6 year wedding anniversary and he remembered and bought me a fry daddy. We have fish alot so lets make a healthy thing unhealth cook it in grease. No I'm kidding I had been wanting one for awhile that and a rotisary so maybe for my birthday I will get that. I love Ray more that I can express he has stood with me thru thick and thin and definatly thru sickness and health what more can I ask for. Here are a couple of photos of our wedding it was in a friends yard, matter of fact the guy in the post below Steve this is his sister Gails house she is the one that married us. And yes I'm very pregnant I had Michael october 8. At least I'll alway remember how many years we've been married by how old Michael is. The last picture is recent one.
Hope everone has a great weekend

help a Mainer Please VOTE!!!

2006-09-01T10:39:00.000-04:00

I usually dont ask for stuff like this but a friend of my family has been nominated to receive an award from volvo and could really use your votes. Read his story below::::::::

He is a young man that lost both his legs in an auto accident on his way to work at Pratt Whitney 5 years ago. He started a foundation for handicap people and also has been on WCSH Channel 6’s 207 program.
A submission was made nominating his foundation for a Volvo for life award.
He needs everyone’s vote.

Can you go to the link below and click on “vote”, then under “Maine” vote for Steve Loignon?
http://www.volvoforlifeawards.com

If you would like to visit Steve's website, it may be worth your timeto check it out: "Loignon.org"

Stepping Back into Life
In 2001, my husband, Steve, lost both legs while on his way to work when a car hit him head on. After one month in a coma and four more months in rehab, he has strived to make the best out of his situation.

As part of this effort, Steve created a resource initiative, Stepping Back Into Life, Inc., in the spring of 2003. The initiative’s centerpiece is the Web site, www.loignon.com, which offers support, encouragement, and resource references to anyone who is or has been recently physically disabled.

Through its Website and references, Stepping Back Into Life, Inc. has become a valuable resource for the recently disabled. Users can find information on rehab and support groups, education and retraining, scholarships, sponsors, and even information on insurance coverage.

Since the accident, Steve has not let his disability slow him down. His non-profit foundation has expanded, and it recently gave two scholarships to those who wish to go on to college. In addition to working on Stepping Back Into Life, Inc., Steve returned to work at Pratt & Whitney Aircraft and opened a small business, all of which he has documented at the organization Web site. The site includes numerous stories by and about similarly disabled and recently disabled contributors, all of whom have overcome their handicaps to lead productive and active lives.

Steven has been a motivator and an inspiration to many people. He attained his Bachelors degree soon after leaving rehab. He contributes his time and efforts to the Disability Rights Center of Maine as well as Maine Handicapped skiing. He recently traveled solo to Tennessee to attend the Amputee Coalition of America Educational Conference. Steve’s continuing mission is to help the disabled and the recently disabled find the inspiration, knowledge, and resources required to "Step Back Into Life" proudly, and with more enthusiasm than ever!

2006-08-31T18:16:00.000-04:00

its only Thursday and I'm having a great week!!! the rash cream seems to be working it burned like hell the first couple of times I put it on now its not so bad. the soars are drying up and the scales are leaving, my hair isnt growing yet but I'm being impatient I want my hair back.
Tuesday night I went to the Portland Fiber Gallery Melody is teaching me how to crochet remember the sampler square afgan I have on my ufo list well it has crochet edges and she helped me figure out how to at least do that.

Wednesday Michael started 1st grade look at how much my little guy has grown in one year the first picture is of kindergarden and now first grade. He was nervous getting on the bus but said the rest of the day was ok.

Wednesday night I went to see my friend Lori. We sat around her pool and had a couple of coctails. It was a nice girls night out I think I really needed that alot. When I got home there was a card that I had a box at the post office, I tell you even though it was midnight if they had been open I would have went to get it. I figured it was my from my secret pal and all my other packages have been great so I knew this one would be too. I had to fill out all Michaels school papers before bed I was sum tired this morning.

I wanted my box so bad that I called my dads girlfriend Kati and asked her if she could go pick it up for me. Let me tell you I'm glad I did and so was Michael. Tammy you are a sneak, you see everyone Tammy was the hostess for my SP7 group and we emailed back and forth alot. She has been a great support for me and she was sneaky she would send some replys as my secret pal and some as herself, and I have her on my blog roll.

Tammy, Michael was soooo excited about the game I am going to install it after supper for him.
While it installs I will be reading my big girl knits book. That book was on my amazon favorites forever. I kept saying I have to get that and then something would come up.
Know what the best part of SP8 has been for me is that Tammy got to know me, not just as a secret pal but as a friend so thank you Tammy for absolutly everything..
My pal got her present she emailed me that she liked it so I at least know she got it. I will definately be doing SP9 This round had been great Have I said thank you Tammy.
Here are a couple more pictures, Michael with his game and of all my presents and that not counting the other stuff she sent before havent I been lucky.

2006-08-28T11:21:00.000-04:00

I found a Doctor!!!!!
I was fed up all weekend I dont want to leave my house unless I absolutly have to. So this morning I printed off a list of dermatologist from my insurance company and crossed off all the docs in that practice that said oct was the earliest they could get me in. I found a doctor in Portland he is an md and and dermatologist and he had a cancellation at 2:3o TODAY!!!!
I took it. Ray is home today because it is his birthday so when he gets off the boat from fishing he is going to bring me some shorts and sneakers and my truck, he had to use it to hall the boat. I cant wait I'm so excited I know it will take awhile to grow the hair back but to just get some answers and something to stop the itch my legs are so raw that pants hurt.
I'll post tonight when I get home and let you know what happens.

UPDATE: @ 5:30
I went to the doc he confirmed it is phoriasis and an odd case he thinks its reacting to the remicade is a weird way especially since remicade is used to treat phoriasis in some people. he gave me 3 different meds one is a foam to put on my head twice a day, one is a really strong hydrocotizone cream for the sores and an antihistamine (sp) to take before bed for the itching. he wants to see me back in two weeks and said if it isnt better he will biopsy one of the sores. He was really nice he said let me ask you is the remicade helping with the crohns I told him yes it is so he said ok we are going to find a way to make the psoriasis better without taking you off the remicade then. which I thought was really considerate of him. I swear I was in and out of there in 15 minutes. And that other place couldnt do the same thing until Oct who are they kidding anyways. I feel so much better now I mean I'm still bald in placesand all itchy and scaly all over but I seam to have found a doc that gives a shit. So that is my news thank you everyone for your support I have been a wreck the last couple of weeks I'm sure it showed so thanks for sticking with me.
oh one other thing he told me if I can take a couple of days off from work and get some sun, it seems sunlight and uv light is one of the best cures for phoriasis. I cant take time off but I will try to find a tanning bed place close to work I get an hour might as well try it. but who would have ever thought a dermatologist would say get some sun not stay out of it. So I guess he is less worried about skin cancer than he is about the phoriasis.

2006-08-24T13:57:00.000-04:00

Update
Doc is off on Mondays
Called Tuesday left voice mail around 10am
Called Wednesday at 9:30
Called today at 11.
Still no call back do these nurses not understand that I'm losing my f***en hair, and the welts on my legs HURT and I sit all day so its not very comfy. I'm not even trying to get in to see him just give me a list of dermatologist and I'll call to see if they take my insurance. I've had enough.
oh and the doc is off on Friday
I don't blame him and I usually like his staff but this is ridiculous. Even a call back to say I'm working on it Something. If I don't get a call back by tomorrow I'm just going to grab a phone book and start calling. Screw it. I don't want to get in next month I want to get in next week before I'm bald. Everyone at work will be back from vaca so I can go any day.
I guess this is why I always make a point to call customers back and tell them if we are delayed or to just say I got your message and will call back when I get an answer. For the amount that the doc charges you would think customer courtesy would be a big thing.
Sorry for the vent I 'm not sleeping good right now and I'm tired and agrivated.
I'll let you know when and if they call back or if I find someone on my own.

update 3:45
I got a call your not gonna believe this shit they cant get me in to the dermatologist until OCT 2, they can have me see the nurse practitioner at my docs office this monday at 1. Alot of good that is going to do my doc has looked at it a couple of times but its not his specialty so thats why he wants me to see a derm. I called the dermatologist myself and told them if you have any cancellations in either of their offices please call me I'm gonna be bald by october. I am still at work or I would be sitting here crying my eyes out. ok got to go before I do.